The jealousy that lies within

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tw's for this chapter

-puking

-panic attack

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Sunoo half listened to the conversation around him, unable to concentrate fully. Sunghoon and Taki had left to bring all the luggage down and had dragged Heeseung and Nicholas to help them. Niki, K, Ej, and Yuma were all trying to play one last round of some game before we all left. Jay and Fuma were both nowhere to be seen, but he figured they were finishing up cleaning from breakfast earlier.

Around him, Jake, Jungwon, Jo, Maki, and Harua were having their own conversations about plans for when they reached Japan. Something about mall shops and some new restaurant, but Sunoo only tuned them out and looked over to the other four boys in the room. His eyes landed on Niki who had his elbows positioned on his knees and had his eyes on the screen with a serious expression. Sunoo knew how much Niki liked winning so he knew Niki was taking this last game very seriously.

He continued to watch the four play but only had eyes for his boyfriend. He watched as Niki swiped his tongue across his bottom lip in full concentration and his heart stuttered at the sight.

Sunoo stared at Niki longingly. He felt bad about how he acted this morning, but he couldn't help it. He's not sure what's wrong with him these past few days, but he hates how he can't control his jealousy. Sunoo inwardly sighed and then watched as Niki's teeth bit his bottom lip and then smiled brightly before standing up and shouting.

"Yes! I won! I beat you three, now pay up," Niki jumped up and shouted with a huge smile on his face while holding out his hand to the three others next to him. "Oh come on you cheated! There's no way you got 27 kills!" Ej shouted. Niki and Yuma laughed at Ej's words and Sunoo smiled slightly.

Sunoo's face changed as he saw K stand up and pull Niki in for a side hug while saying, "No, he won fair and square guys, now I guess we must pay up huh?" Niki looked gleeful while Ej made a face but handed Niki some money. Yuma snickered and handed Niki some money as well. Ej and Yuma both walked over to join the other conversation in the room, but Sunoo kept his eyes on Niki and K.

He watched as K pulled Niki in closer to the hug and then grabbed Niki's hand to place the money in. Sunoo felt his heart drop at the sight and looked at the Bright smile still on Niki's face. They both laughed at something K said, but all Sunoo could hear was ringing in his ears. He couldn't do this anymore. He hated everything that K did to Niki. How he joked, laughed, hugged, played, danced, everything. And he couldn't help it.

Sunoo abruptly stood up and rushed out of the room bursting into the kitchen not caring about the eyes on him. He marched through the door not noticing the two heads that turned to him, and started pacing back and forth. He started to feel his chest tighten, but wasn't sure what was happening. His breathing kept getting shorter, and there was ringing in his ears, so much ringing.

Sunoo's vision started to blur and he couldn't see the figures in front of him. Suddenly there was wetness and he reached up to feel his face. Why am I crying! "W-what's hap-happening to me," Sunoo's words came out in a panicked tone, while his voice sounded rushed and sharp. His heart was beating fast and kept getting faster. He was sweating, his hands were shaking, and he could feel a lump in his throat.

He could hear voices around him but no words were heard, there was only muffled noise. Sunoo started coughing while trying to take deep breaths which only led to more coughing and his breathing getting even shorter. He felt a lump in his throat and no matter how much he tried to swallow the lump wouldn't go away! He felt hands on his shoulders and couldn't tell who it was but he could not handle the touching at that moment. He shoved the person away and rushed to the trash can. He barely made it before he felt vomit rise in his throat and released all of yesterday's dinner.