Ever since I was a kid I seemed to developed around bad people. They had this look of disappointment in their eyes, as if they were expecting more from me. But I never seemed to care or think about it. But now it feeling like a hurricane coming down and destroying every "I don't care" moment I had and made me care about it. I soon started to be a bit more sensitive and "rude" like people said. They wouldn't describe me as a kid they just described me as an "object" and "tool". I knew it from the start but I just didn't want to face reality. I have been avoiding this anger that builds up in me. And so I avoided anything that had to do with "affection". I didn't know if people were pretending to actually care about me. So I wanted to save the warm hugs for someone who will actually be there for me and care about me. I just hoped that one day a big wave would come and wash away my sorrows.
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The Last Chance To Make Me Feel "Alive"
Randomthis isn't a story but paragraphs of wanting to find out about something and know what it is that I'm looking for in life
