"oh ok I'm happy he rescued me" as I said stuttering Petals just smiles and looks at me hugging me "yes grandpa is the bravest strongest and most caring grandpa in the world" as she hugs tighter around my arm
She sees my face and she frowns "you don't need to feel sad you have friends right" I just pat her head holding her close as I cry "I don't know anymore" as my body seems to show corruption grandpa snaps "PETALS BACK UP"
As he says that I just freeze as Petals looks at me "your not scaring me" as I just cry my body turns to normal "see your good two you got strong in your heart like Grandpa" I just cry holding her head close to me and rub it "no I am weak I'm always left alone"
As George just shushes Petals she just sighs "well grown up talk is to hard to understand so remember your strong two you got something to protect" as she goes into the other room "so how long have you been dealing with the corruption" he looks at me seriously
"I can't say it shows up and that's that I can control it but other times I can't" as I hit my chest hard "that all I do" as I leave a huge bruise on my chest "I only cause people pain" as I just cry "I don't want to be alone anymore"
As I hear a howl in the distance I smile "Baskerville come" as the howl gets louder George looks at me wide eyed "that is your beast" I just nod confused as why he is worried "yes his name is Baskerville why"
George get angry at me "THAT BEAST BEEN TAKING MY GAME" as I shake my head "he guards the meat from others" as I whistles "BASKERVILLE BRING THE FOOD YOU FOUND" as the howl disappears
For minutes a dog bust through the door dropping meat on the floor "good dog" as I pet him "who is best boy you are best boy" as Baskerville wags his tail and pants "you want some food also" as I look at George
"Can he have a piece of pig" as George just sighs nodding "next time that beast takes my game he will regret it" as Baskerville goes up to him and lays at his feet as I smile I feel something in my chest echo out "I love you still"
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"Why does he still have the corruption" Rose says looking at posh "for him to stop the paradox he has to envelope the paradox into him" as posh just sighs "he is willing to die still for those who hate him and despite him helping" as Rose just pushes posh back as she runs out of the room
"So that's how the paradox ended" as Rex comes in "so he still willing to hurt himself for all of us" he continues as posh just nods "he told me to kill him when he fuzed with the paradox" as he looks at his hands
"He is a good friend to me one I can trust" as he hits the wall Nosh comes in "why is Rose crying" as Rex and Posh looks at her "Caleb ran off" as Nosh just chuckles "oh lovers quarrel so lovely and how cute" as she smiles she noticed everyone was sad
"Wait what happened is something wrong" as nosh gets a little worried "Caleb hit Rose and teleported away we can only find his essence in the corrupt part of the transfer void" as Nosh closes her eyes "poor Rose"
As Nosh exits the room she goes to Rose room as she knocks on the door "can I come in" as Rose just muffles and cries in her pillow "hey Caleb wouldn't hurt you he loves you" as Nosh just sighs "he has been stressing over us for a while"
"I know" Rose says annoyed "why does he do this" as she gets more annoyed "he has been doing all he can and holding so much back" as she cry's "and he keeps wanting to die and he doesn't see we love him"
as Nosh rubs her head and sighs "Caleb is interesting he knows he is happy he knows people care" as Nosh smiles "hey he will come back if not you and me Somoa and Brittany will help you find him" as Rose just nods
"I would like that it be a girl's night out" as Somoa comes in "I heard my name oh my creator" as he smiles "oh hi Miss Nosh how are you" as he looks at Rose
"oh why is my creator crying don't worry we will find Caleb" as Nosh shushes her "it will be us that do that no boys" as Somoa glows "it be a girl's night how so lovely" as he claps his hands Rose just smiles and laughs "I would like that"
As Rose and Nosh get up and walk with Somoa "hey Brittany want to head out" as Rex looks at him "need us to search" as Somoa glows with a smile "no boys stays home girls night out" as Rex whistles "go get him sexy" as Somoa blushes
As of it me and rose have been having couples issues like me arguing with her and bringing up trivial things and getting mad at her though in this story what seems like hours of about Rose I just remembered all her memories with me and she finds happiness with me and it scares me I feel loved but I can't love but they care for me but no one care for me but they all do all of the crew everyone I wrote about all of my creations and now I can find some sort of hope and happiness still inside myself that im scared to have
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The Mental State
Fanfictionthese are stories for me to work on during my therapist and me talking this is her idea for me to write for my self of how I feel inside and express it properly I will do all stories in 3 parts so all of them reflect my emotion feelings and contipla...
