baby (you complete us) || BTS x Reader

chapter 1

Every morning for the past ten years, the first thing you did was open the Soul app. Each morning you hoped and wished to see a notification on the upper right corner of the app on your screen. And each morning you were once again left disappointed with the zero notifications. Each of your friends had already found theirs, had met up with them and felt the bond cement within their souls.

You couldn't help but to grow envious and jealous of their happiness, even now, as you watch your closest friends pledge their lives and souls to each other. You were a bridesmaid, right behind her own sister, the maid of honor. You were like a sister to Anna, having grown up with her and her family. But you never felt so out of place, like you didn't belong as you stood there.

You were beyond happy for Anna and Chris, love in your heart for them as you witness their love for each other. But you couldn't help but to feel your own heart break at the sight.

Your soulmates didn't want you; it was the only conclusion you could think of. Ten years, ten years of knowing that you have seven soulmates out there.

Your bracelet made the distinction of telling you that your soulmates already knew each other. Maybe it shouldn't have. It left you feeling the way you do now, believing that they don't want you.

And maybe you couldn't blame them.

For every day, over the past ten years, since you first put on the gift from your parents, you had messaged your soulmates, introducing yourself, letting them know how your day went. Everything and anything you could think of. But once your mother passed away, you slowly started to taper off your messages.

The feeling of being alone had started to sink in.

You had family come in, say their condolences, and leave after a while. Even people you didn't know were coming in to say their part, but nothing from your soulmates. You never once saw a 'read' notification underneath a message.

Then, not even a month after your mother's passing, you were diagnosed with Hypermobile Ehlers Danlos Syndrome, a genetic connective tissue disorder that affects your entire body. You were diagnosed after your sister took you to the doctors, her concern for your hips and knees becoming too much after seeing you need a cane for walking assistance. The diagnosis took weeks of medical history research and a physical examination.

Apparently popping your wrists in and out of place isn't as much of a party trick as you thought it was.

After that, you just sort of stopped the messages, only really messaging when you had no one else to talk to. You figured, if they aren't going to read it, then why not use it as a sort of diary, writing the things you knew you couldn't tell others.

Today, however, would be the last time you messaged them. You had decided mid ceremony that you weren't going to continue wearing your bracelet. It was just becoming a reminder of how much your life was not going the way you wanted.

"Thank you so much for being here with me!" Anna spoke to you, wrapping her arms around you in a tight hug. She had pulled you aside after pictures. You were having a good day, not needing your cane but having it sat by your assigned seat just in case. You weren't sure if you wanted to be in the wedding when she asked you, but knowing how happy she was, you said yes.

"I'm glad I got to be a part of your special day." You smiled back, hoping she didn't see the small sadness in your eyes. Anna nodded in response; just glad you were happy. She knew how hard your life had been in the past couple years, and she loved seeing the smile on your face whenever it happened. She wanted you to be happy always, never having to feel pain again.