old notebook

ᴛᴇʟʟ ᴍy ᴡʜy ɪɴ ᴡᴀɪᴛɪɴɢ

Author's pov ;
" congrats on ur bday ,girl! " Said bangchan as he wrapped his bff in a warm huge
" . . . thnx dude . . . can we talk ? " she Said trying not to sound that sad as she peeled herself off him
" y-yes Bae . . . shshsh tell me what's wrong , don't cry shshsh . . . " he Said as soon as he heard her muffeld sob after she Lowered her head
" it's about . . . that ... Uk ... Presentation thing ... What if I'm not an alpha ?! What if I am an omega ?! The least I can accept is beta !!! " she managed to say as she lifted her eyes to lock eye contact w chan who is now tired of hearing her talk like this cuz this be like the 5th time in a day
He cubbed her cheeks in his hands and kissed her forehead just like he always did to help her get over her grief
" ur my strong wild alpha , k ? Now hushsh don't cry , alpha don't cry , u have to baer with it " he mumbeled in her ears after hugging her again
Every one , like literally even the pets in their small village believed that they were going to mate once both of them present himself . well , bangchan has already presented as an alpha which was always expected from him and that putted moni thru shit cuz she was stronger and faster than him , but uk guys how bad anxiety can be
Once she seemed to relax a bit chan pulled out from the huge and helped her go home to get some sleep
Moni isn't in a much happy relationship with herself and even her mental state is ... Not that good too
She has a secret
A secret that makes her feel good
A secret that she now is obsessed with
More than drugs
It's a thing . no , a notebook
A notebook that she vents in
An escape to the place she created where she could just cry
Cry w no eyes on her , cry with no one to stop , cry w no one to help her ...

She wrote and wrote again , Page after Page , she don't seem to notice her bleeding fingers from writing harshly w that wooden pencil that is now broken into pieces from her hard grip on it ...
After a while her eye lieds started to get heavier w every blink , she put her stuff away and finally rest her aching back on the soft matters , she is asleep

𝓢𝓽𝓪𝔂 𝓽𝓾𝓷𝓮𝓭 𝓯𝓸𝓻 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓷𝓮𝔁𝓽 𝓬𝓱𝓪𝓹𝓽𝓮𝓻 ~
𝓗𝓸𝓹𝓮 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓵𝓲𝓴𝓮𝓭 𝓲𝓽 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓽𝓱𝓷𝔁 𝓯𝓸𝓻 𝓡𝓮𝓪𝓭𝓲𝓷𝓰 ✨