The hippo is me cause I'm pathetic Vent book

My past toxic self

I hated myself until now too I basically got scared my bestfriend will replace me with a monster from he'll...Her name starts with an H she litterlly shouts at her own friend who loved her no matter how mean she was like what the?! Who would wanna be friends with that kind of person?! I swear I've cried myself to sleep so many times but I was so scared of being replaced that I kept saying to my bestie that she is prob tired of that's why she replaces me I know I was toxic but the thing is after she forgave me there were these voices they told me to kill myself and that I didn't deserve fun... After my toxic past I got GAD anxiety I just wanna heal but everything is killing me right behind and in front of me.