Broken

2

Warnings:sh and mention of rape and miscarriage
Y/ns pov
I woke up to my phone ringing so I got up and looked at my phone and it was a I known number calling so I got up and answered the phone  "hello is this y/n l/n"They say    "Ya this is her who are you"  I say "this is the hospital and I am sorry to inform you but your mum  has just got killed in a car accident " they say on the other line
I dropped my phone and fell to my knees crying when Colby picked up my phone "hey y/n will call you back later" he says "Omg ok Umm bye " he says Colby hangs up the phone and puts it on the bed and pulls me into a hug and i hug him back and cry into his chest and fall asleep

Colby's pov
I woke up to y/ns phone ringing and she got up and answered it "yes this is her who are you "y/n said then she dropped her phone and fell to the ground crying so I got up and picked up her phone and started talking " hey y/n will call you back later" I say "hey don't worry about that this is the hospital  can you please let her know that she can come and see her mum body's if she wants to " she says "Omg ok umm bye " I say "bye" she says

I hanged up the phone and put it onto her bed and then pulled her into a hug and she cried into my chest while I rubbed her back. After a bit she stopped crying so I looked at her and she was asleep in my arms so I put her onto her bed and went back to my room and saw Sam on his phone

"Hey Sam" I say walking into my room and hopping into the bed "hey Colbs why did you leave the room last night and not come back" he asked "oh I Heard y/n go down stairs so I went down to see if she was ok and she was on the couch watching Lucifer again and I knew something was up so I just sat with her and she fell asleep on me so I took her back to her room and was about to leave when she asked me to say" I said "oh ok is she awake" he asked putting his phone down  "no she is asleep" I say "oh why you leave her all alone" he says "because I needed to get up and start my day and I didn't want to wake her up" I lied "why are you lying to me colbs" he said

Sam always knew when I was lying somehow and it was really confusing "umm well y/n got a call from the hospital telling  y/n that her mum has died and then she fell on her knees crying and now she is asleep again" I say "Omg that's horrible " he says "I know right " I say  "well we better get up we have to film today" he says getting out of bed "ok" I say

I got out of bed and made it and then I got changed into my XPLR hoodie and some sweatpants and then did my hair and teeth
Y/ns pov
I woke up and started to cry again and the voices inside my head came back 'this is all your fault she was coming to see you if you just hadn't moved away from them she would still be alive' they said "s-stop" I say curling up into a ball on my bed 'your so weak it's pathetic' 'your always crying' 'your so annoying' 'you should just die already' I got up and went into the box full of all of my memories with my mum in it when I saw the knife my mum gave me for protection so I picked it up and gave into the voices and locked my door and sat on my bed and started to cut and let out a little scream and continued to cut twelve more times on both wrists and after the last cut everything when blurry and i Heared Colby knocking on my door before every thing went black

Colby's pov
I was walking past y/ns room when I heared a little scream so I knocked on her door and got no answer so I tried to open her door but it was locked so ran into my room and grabbed the key to her door and unlocked it and went in and saw her in her bed passed out and her arms covered in blood so I went over to her first aid kit and found some bandages and covered her alms in them and put my hoodie on her and then she started to wake up

"C-Colby?" She says looking at me " you promised me that you stoped cutting" I said " I know and I did but then the voices came back and I tried to ignore them and I did until I went into my box of memory and found the knife my mum gave me for protection and then I gave into the voices" she said with tears in her eyes