Story For Someone

Love Purity And Chaos

5 years before the breakup

"ok I have a idea" as I wake up Rose laying in bed next to me "what's the idea" as she yawns before covering herself up with her blanket "give me more sleep" she snaps at me "ok I will but can I tell you my idea" a little annoyed she sighs "ok what is it then in back to bed" I smile widely "we go to the movies in ZORT deminsion"

As she wakes up a little more "what's their that we would need" as she seems I got her attention "movie night you and me" as she looks at the all "oh yeah Valentines day I forgot" she said in a whisper "ok it's set then" Rose just nods "ok who is paying" as she says a little annoyed "Hearts is paying for it" as I chime "we are going to watch one of my oldest creations"

As she looks at me "older than Decker" I just nod "their from the land of 33 and their the most funniest creation I made" as she pauses "so who are we watching" I just grin "your not going to tell me are you' Rose says with a wine "can you tell me at least some hint" I just grin even wider "your so mean" as she pauses "ok I'll let it be a surprise"

5 years after the breakup

We grown apart I mentally and physically drained our love wanting someone to fix me and to carry my burdens but I saw to late on what I have done I feel hurt not at her but at myself if I only stopped if only I left my hatred of myself somewhere capable and better than lashing out even in the hatred I have of myself she still wishes to be part of my life we may not be married or feinced or even in a relationship I still love her and I will still do what I can to make it right

I know I will never be the one she loves her life is her to make I only forced her to fix my life and I wanted to selfishly put that burden only to her but she still wants to be my friend maybe in the future we can try and I will go beyond just overcompensating or over thinking and lashing out I will do and work on myself just like she is doing and I wish I would of saw that and not hurt her

I grew up with the belief I hurt those around me by existing I fully believed that as mutch as I lived and sleep awake and be but she slowly saw me as someone that hurts and she wanted to help me so I then put my burdens on her like she was a tool and I hated myself every day I wish I would of saw it sooner but my actions are mine to feel I know we will never be together again but I hope in the future she will want to try again

So here is the story of what I feel from

"So what now" I ask feeling my hatred twords myself boiling over "my creator I do not know" as Philosopher just bows his head "I understand your feelings but I believe going through the door will benefit you" I just punch the mirror as my form begins to grow "YES I NEED TO LEAVE" as I begin to cry "I HATE MYSELF" as the form seems to consume my body "ALL I DO IS MAKE OTHERS SUFFER MY EXISTENCE MAKES OTHERS HURT" as I scream out

My form fully consumed me as I just cry "going to eatherall will not let me come back ever you know" Philosopher just begins to hold me up as I fall "you may never come back but I know when your truly needed then I know you will come full force from it" Philosopher smiles as looks at me "so do I tell everyone or will you" I sigh as before he can reply "I will tell them all" Philosopher nods "as you wish I will bring everyone"

I close my eyes as tears roll down my cheeks "no I will" as I just smile weakly feeling myself not able to even stand and my hatred of myself grows more than anything the burns I grab a music box with the symbols of the paradox and Primas Mantel I play it as it plays the song Amber Journey I just smiles as I walk out of the room and head to the door of Eatherall I just feel a sense of hope and life almost as my soul feels calmer

I begin to open the door I hear a voice "YOU BETTER COMEBACK SOMEDAY" as I turn to see Gameboy almost on the verge of tears "I ain't leaving forever" as Gameboy begins to run to me "who is going to play fable 2 or rivals" as he pulls my arm away from the door "you will find someone maybe Rex can play it with you" as I just smile and see Gameboy crying I just rub the tears from his eyes

"hey better save those tears when I come back" as I hear another voice "so see ya nexttime brother" I just chuckle "ok Posh I need you to keep Coleb from the UOD also I have about 50 books I have made and need publishers" as Posh just smiles and nods "ok I'll see what I can do" as he whistles "want me to make books while your away" I just shake my head "no from what Philosopher said I can't come back but I can send things through the door"

As I see everyone coming near me Rose looks at me crying "you don't need to cry Rose" I just open the door as everyone seems to be sadden "hey I'll be back just think of it as a Vacation I'll be back when you all need me ok" as I smile "NOW YOU ALL QUIT CRYING AND SMILE I DONT WANT THE LAST THING I SEE IS SADNESS" as I just chuckle "see you all next time" as I spin and step in fully I speak for the last time

Till Next Time

This story has been a lot harder to make then I was expecting I decided to try my hardest to finish it so this is a collective of several days since we broke up

Just remember their is someone their for you try to work as hard as you can to nurture that relationship than taking it for granted so thank you for reading

Will be back to writing stories soon

So still take care and the later

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