Naegami Oneshots 2.0

Letting Go Isn't Easy

angst

Makoto PoV

I sat down, looking at him, laughing nervously at myself.

"Hey... I'm back again, huh? You're probably getting sick of me... hehe..." I mumbled.

As usual, there was no reply.

"I miss you, you know... Nothing is the same." I frowned.

I put my head down, covering the tears in my eyes.

"S-Sorry... I... I don't have much to talk about." I mumbled. "Hope's Peak is going well. It's been nice rebuilding it all."

I put my hand against the stone, sobbing quietly.

"Why?" I asked. "Why did you have to leave me? So soon, Byakuya... we still had so much to do together."

I looked at the ring on my finger.

"Why did it have to be you..?" I cried.

I traced my finger over the engraved name.

Truth is, Byakuya died last year, a month after he proposed to me. The despair declared war around 3 years ago and... Byakuya didn't get out of it alive.

Of course, we defeated them, but... he'll never know that.

I cried pathetically into the tombstone.

"3 months..." I frowned. "You left me 3 months before it ended."

The funny thing is... well, it's not funny, but... he could've survived, too, but the nurses couldn't get to him in time.

I came with my sister, but she just stayed in the car. Not for long as I heard her behind me.

"Hey... are you okay?" She asked.

I didn't reply, my head still resting on the tombstone.

Komaru knelt next to me and began to rub circles into my back.

"I'm sure he's proud of you, Makoto. You've done very well this year." She said.

I couldn't bear to look at her, gripping at the last thing that represented the love of my life.

"Oh, come here."

I hesitantly pulled away from the grave, hugging my sister.

She giggled. "You're all wet."

"I-It was raining last night so... I'm not surprised." I muttered.

"Yeah..."

I sighed. "Why did he have to leave so soon? Why did it have to be him?"

"I know, Makoto... I can't imagine what you're feeling."

"Don't." I half-laughed. "It isn't fun..."

I held her close, still crying.

"How about we go somewhere else?" She offered.

I thought for a few moments, letting go of her.

"Can I just... stay here by myself for a little longer?" I asked.

"Of course." She smiled. "I'll be in the car."

I nodded, and she walked off.

Facing back to the tombstone, I sat down again.

"Well... I guess I have to leave." I smiled slightly. "I'll come back..! With conversation, I hope..." I chuckled.

I cleared my throat.

"Well... I'll see you later." I smiled. "I'll bring you something next time. These flowers are starting to wilt."

I patted the stone.

"I love you." I said, pulling my hand away.

Standing up, I wiped the leaves and grass off of my pants.

I felt like I had more to say, but... it was stuck on the edge of my tongue.

"Bye." I sadly smiled, walking away.

Taking this walk hurt my heart every time. Walking away from him when there's no happy ending.

I guess there isn't a happy ending in life, is there?