Last Hope

THE SIGNS

So You may know this voice in your head .
My name is Ali and I'm 26 Years young .
My Story isn't only mine but it's also yours .
I can recall a lot of people going through what I did or still is . Let me tell you how this goes shall we ?

Now I'm a mother of a 3 year old son , working , feel slouched every-time , hungry , bored , high . Just regular activities I do normally. No man , no sex , No satisfaction for me . Lonely , loveless , and no lust . Just me , my self & I of course .

About every 5-10 mins I wonder what's next in my life , what I'm going to do , how am I gonna do it , who am I gonna love , why I'm not happy ? I decided not to act like such a an adult and start playing games and find a hobby to do . I End up being on this site called discord and play these server programs online . I had my Fun and games here and there but there was still something missing . Seen all the signs but I still ignored it . I've seen love search for me but I ain't need it around the time . These signs were calling me and I just ain't want to move . I felt stuck in place and rather stay in the lonely zone .

I get a ping from off this discord website

* Private message ping *

HIM : " It's a honor as a humble nigga to befriend a female from New York just hmu when tryna play "

I still ignored the signs from his calls and love signs . I felt i wasn't needed at the moment . I let days go by without replying back to his sweet attention. I would say 2 month went by and it's now October 8th 2022 .....

HIM : " Yo nellz u Eva play in dlrp (druglord nyc) "

HER : " Yup I'll never join that unprofessional ass server ever again "

HIM : " damn sorry I had an bad experience if you Eva give it a chance again let me know I can get you right . I will admit back then was a lil crazy for the server but it's now professional trust me "

HER : " Send link then . I miss nyc anyway "

HIM : " Ight say dat "
* SENDS LINK *

Now at this point I'm doing this random guy a favor by playing a server I wasn't even interested in.
Now he's telling me how to work a server I've already joined , now I don't know if he remembers me or he's playing like he don't but I'm loving how he's all in act at this moment or maybe I'm over reacting .
So I rather not say a word to weird him off so I comply with his request .

HIM : " Make sure
You get your drug lord diva and streamer roles "
HER : " Boy I did that "

HIM : " oh my fault lol "

At that moment I get irritated with how the server worked for me but I guess it was because I wanted to play with him badly , don't know why . I just wanted to .

* Days go by without me playing still *

HIM : " you baited but u prob had a reason "

HER : " yeah boo my dad is missing and rn I'm freaking out since 8pm "
" now it's 2am "
" I'm still up tryna to find my dad "

HIM : " oh damn handle that and give me updates "

Wondering why he care so much
Made me feel more closer to him .

HIM : " you found him ? "

HER : " he came home just now . About to curse him out thank you "

HIM : " probably had him self a lil a dime piece "
HER : " lmao smh wow bye "

HIM : " glad he Ight "

So I finally made it to time where I can play with him .

HIM : " NAH NELLZ MA HEART I NEED YOU "
" school rp Ina lil "
" tryna be cuffed up "

HER : " okay bet and I'm
Going to school no worries lol "

We finally made it to Role playing together and the first time hearing His voice just  made me lust for his soul and all of him ...

I don't fall in love through virtual reality but when you feel someone's soul , heart & voice
You tend to fall to hard .. here's my story my love story ......