Between us [GL'S SERIES #2]

CHAPTER 45- A DRINK

"don't mind her, masiyado na kasi yang bugbug sa trabaho kaya naging masungit na ganyan" zigi whispered habang naglalakad kami sa dalampasigan papunta sa rooftop bar nila "nawala pagiging maarte ng babaeng yan pansin ko, tita van also told me how she didn't get enough sleep dahil sa kakatrabaho but you know things with her are all worth it dahil sa saglit na panahon nakabuo siya agad ng pangalan niya, i'm so proud of her" he giggles

"ikaw? nagulat ako pilot ka'na i can't believe it" i smiled and nod

"things happened and here i am" he nods agreeing on what ive said

"too bad you didn't end up together, the most beautiful almost for me" i chuckled on him pero nahalata ata nito kung gaano kapeke ang mga tawang ginawad ko kaya napailing siya

"mas mabuti na'yon, if we did wala sana kami dito ngayon" my gaze went up to her who's walking calmly while looking to the sea na masiyadong malakas ang alon dahil malalim narin ang gabi

kalmado lamang itong nakatingin roon at hindi kami tinatapunan ng tingin ni hindi rin neto binalak na sabayan kami sa paglalakad dahil siguro sa inis niya sa kaibigan

"i'm sorry ael" i heard him talks kaya napasulyap ako rito

"for what zigi?" i asked confused

"i know and see how you love her before, you even planned to propose to her but destiny didn't let you to be happy together, and you know what? mali ka if maybe you two ended up together i'll still see the smile on your face. malaki rin ang pinagbago mo" he said sadly na kinakunot ng noo ko "don't lie to me ael, we maybe barely know each other but i'm observant i saw how your eyes twinkled upon seeing her, looking at her it makes me envious because i want to find someone like you who will look at me like that, she told me you're quiet one and too serious on everything you do but you know when i met you then i didn't notice all of that" he sigh "you know what i notice? those smiles when you're with her it didn't fade, but now don't asked me kung ano napapansin ko kasi pareho lang kayo"

i averted my eyes on him dahil sobrang laking bagsak ng mga sinabi niya, he maybe right. he maybe

"pareho lang kayong nagtatago ngayon, you two acted like you hate each other pero ang totoo may namuo ng takot diyan" he pointed my chest where my heart is located

napabuga ako sa hangin when we arrive at the bar at sinalubong ng mga stuff na kaibigan rin ni zigi

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"magandang gabi ma'am pir!" the stuff greeted na sinabayan nilang batiin din kami ni zigi, some of them ay naalala kopa dahil kasama sila nung huling punta ko rito pero yung iba ay hindi kona makilala dahil siguro bago ang mga ito

"goodevening" she greeted back and went to her seat "one vodka please"

"ikaw ael? they have the best drink they offered here mamaya ay ako naman ang magtitimpla but for now pumili ka muna ng iinumin mo" he told me and lend me the menu

"martini nalang" i told him

"here's your drink ma'a--" the waiter stopped ng mamukhaan ako actually she's familiar to me kilala ko siya, siya yung babaeng nakakwentuhan ko nung time na.. nevermind i should'nt thinking of that

its all in the past

"it's good to see you here again ma'am, sabi ko na nga ba kayo ni ma'am pir ang magkakatuluyuan kahit na hindi natuloy yung proposal na binalak niyo, sayang din yung dinner na hinanda niyo non ah ilang oras niyo din pinaghirapan yon, pero kita niyo naman po kayo pa--" she stopped when she saw how this girl infront me looked at her confused

i gulp,

"beh dun ka na nga ang daldal mo, go back to work" zigi ordered na kinatango naman neto at kakamot kamot na umalis sa harap namin

"what proposal is she talking about?" i heard her asked to zigi

"don't mind her pir, nagbibiro lang yon she though they have something going to the both of you before" and zigi look at me kaya napainom nalang ako sa inumin ko at hindi makatingin sa babaeng ramdam kong nakatingin ngayon sa direksyon ko

why's my heart being like this again? i hate this

"you're drinking too much, we're here to try the drinks not to get drunk" she says coldy without looking at me pero alam na alam ko na para sakin niya sinabi ang mga ito

"but thats not my purpose here" i whispered

i saw how she look upon me, mariin siyang nakatingin sakin pero hindi ko binalak na iwasan ito "what's your purpose then?" she asked

"to have fun." i shortly answered

"are you having fun then?" she's starting to conversing with me but i just shrugged

i didn't answered and just stare to my drink

i heard her sigh "is this fun to you?" she asked again

"thats what i've expected, but thats not whats happening" i say bluntly, she crossed her legs and relax her back on her seat without taking her eyes on me

"because i'm here?" she asked again

"you have nothing to do with it" i say

"then why aren't you having fun?" how do i supposed to have fun if everything's here is bothering me "you said i have nothing to do with it, then why does it seems you're not having fun" she said again

"i miss home" i says as taking my eyes on her

i wanna go back, this isn't the right home for me..

"this is your home, philippines is your home." i clenched my jaw as i heard that

"not anymore, please just let me enjoy my drink" i told her, i look around me and zigi wasn't there anymore magpapaalam na sana ko kung pwedeng mauna nako dahil baka hinahanap narin ako ng mga kasama ko

i stood up gently and look at her "as much as i wanted to stay, i'm worried my friends are already looking for me" i said "please just send zigi my apologies i'll make it up to him next time" i told her and walked away, but then i didn't expect that she will spoke again

"do you hate me that much?" i heard her whisper

"i don't hate you." i answered without looking at her

"do you hate your sister?" i hardly close my eyes, finding the better words to tell her

"i don't.." i answered almost a whisper

"i'm also having a hard time, i'm stuck between to the both you.." she whispered weakly, i felt the sadness in it

i spaceout after hearing it, at ramdam ko nanaman yung pakiramdam na iniiwasan ko sa oras na makausap ko siya ulit ng ganito, now i realize i can't blame her because she somehow right

naipit lang din siya.

i exhale "that's why i left safira.." i answered and look at her pansin ko ang paghigpit ng hawak neto sa baso

ng hindi ko na ito narinig sumagot i walked away without saying goodbye, my breathe hitch para bang kinakapos ako ng hininga habang tinatahak ko ang lugar palayo roon

sa kabila noon, once again i felt how gloomy the place around me again