Broken Promises

9. Maa

Darshan's pov:

I was playing my guitar sitting at the terrace while staring at the stars.

Harshita: May I know what you're doing here alone?
She said from behind.

Darshan: Who said I'm alone? I have my guitar, my thoughts and this starry sky as my companion.
I said without looking around.

Harshita: Oh wow. I thought I was the only one here who says stuffs that doesn't ever make sense.

Darshan: Maybe if you tried to explain it would make a little sense.

Harshita: No but what are you actually doing here.

Darshan: You know that mom was the only one who supported my passion right?

Harshita: Yeah..

Darshan: But there's one thing you don't know.

Harshita: Then tell me.

Darshan: Everytime I write a new song the first person to listen to it would be my mom. She would ruffle my hairs, kiss my forehead, pull me in her arms and tell me that I'm doing great and one day I'll be singing these songs to the world. She said she would be the happiest to see me live my dream. But look at me. She left me and I left my dream. All I have left are the painful memories and the songs I sang to her. I wrote a new song today. This is the first song I wrote since she left. I came here to sing this to her. They say when someone dies they turn into a star. I hope they're right and I hope she can hear me, see me, love me the way she always did.

She stayed quiet. Maybe she didn't know what to say or maybe her eyes were saying something I couldn't read.

Darshan: Do you want to hear it?
She nods in response still not saying a word.

I close my eyes and start playing my guitar.

Harshita's pov:

"Ab Raaton Ko Mujhe Loriyan Kaun Sunayega
Kaun Sunayega Kaun Sunayega
Ab Subah Ko Mujhe Pyaar Se Kaun Jagayega
Kaun Jagayega Kaun Jagayega"

The blurry memories of mine became clear all of a sudden. I could see her in front me all of a sudden. She's here. Telling me to wake up. And then again, she's not.

"Ke Tum Bole Bina Hi Chale Gaye
Hum Poore Hoke Bhi Ab Adhoore Reh Gaye"

The day of the accident started flashing in front of my eyes. It was a normal day. A normal morning. Until it wasn't.

"Ke Teri Yaadein Aaye Maa
Dil Ko Bada Sataye Maa
Teri Yaadein Aaye Maa
Dil Ko Bada Sataye Maa"

The days I spent sitting near her hospital bed hoping she would open her eyes, the nights I spent waking up from nightmares of losing her started flashing in front of my eyes.

"Kitni Baatein Karni Thi
Kitna Kuch Kehna Tha
Tujhko Hasana Tha Aur
Tere Hath Se Khana Tha Maa"

I started thinking of the moments I used to write. I hoped one day when I'm done writing, I'll read it to her. I hoped she would be proud. I'm still writing but she isn't here to read them.

"Seene Se Mujhko Tu
Apne Laga Le Na
Aawaj Deke Mujhe Tu
Phir Se Bula Dena"

I thought of all the times when I felt like I could hear her that I could see her move. If only this wasn't just a hallucination.

"Duayein Roj Karta Hoon
Uss Rab Se Ye Hi Main
Sab Kuch Mera Lele Par
Meri Maa Lauta De Na
Meri Maa Lauta De Na
Meri Maa Lauta"

I started to remember all the times I prayed in her name with a hope that maybe God will return her to me.

"Ke Tum Kuch Bole Bina Hi Chale Gaye
Hum Poore Hoke Bhi Ab Adhoore Reh Gaye"

Maybe I'll make it out of this hellhole. Maybe I'll be alright. But I'll never be the same me again without her.

Darshan's pov:

I opened my eyes to find her lost in her thoughts. She's looking at me but her heart isn't here.

Darshan: I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to make you emotional.
She didn't reply. Instead she stood up facing me. She started caressing my hair. She started moving her face close to mine closing her eyes. I do the same but I open them again when I felt her lips on my forehead. She looked straight at my eyes after pecking my forehead. Her eyes were shining. I don't know if it was from the moonlight or because of the tears forming in her eyes but either way, they were saying something and this time I could read it.

Harshita: Darshu I know you're the strong one. I know you're the one who always comes to rescue and honestly I don't know how you do this. I don't even know if I will ever be able to it but I promise you I'll try my best. If you ever need me I'm here. I always will be. It's not fair that you wipe my tears and then hide your own. Please let me be there for you. Please..

Darshan: Harshey, did you know when everyone asked me about my first love I would always answer that my first love was, is and always will be my mom. She's the only one I've ever loved. She still is my first love but I'm having a feeling that she wouldn't be my only love anymore.