*****
It's perfect...
The place.
The time.
The ring.
The Bride.
My one and only love...she's here.
She's smiling at me...
the tears of joy is falling down her cheeks...
while she's walking down the aisle...
and I'm smiling back...
crying...
while waiting for her at the altar.
Only , my tears are falling not because...I'm happy...
but because... it hurts
and I miss her...
and I know...
I'm dreaming...again.
Ibinukas ko ang aking mga mata, kasabay ng pagtulo ng mga luha galing dito.
Dahil sa pagkagising mula sa napakagandang panaginip...
...na alam kong mananatiling panaginip lamang.
Nanatili ang tingin ko sa kisame, at inalala ang napaka-gandang imahe niya papalapit saakin sa aking panaginip, pagkatapos ay mapait na napangiti.
If only you were here... I will never waste another time and marry you right away.
If only you're here, Alleira.
If only you could come back to me.
please come back to me...
***
"HEY babe, guess what...I dreamed about you again.''
I caressed her name written in her tombstone.
"In my dream, we're getting married...and...
you're just too beautiful...I-I can't help but wish to just stay there...with you.'' Napangiti ako sakabila ng sakit na maririnig sa boses ko habang inaalalang muli ang kagandahan niya suot ang traje de boda.
"How I wish to just end everything and...be with you but it hurts me so much that... it seems like..the world can't agree with me...''Kinagat ko ang aking labi para pigilan ang kumakawalang hikbi.
"Maybe, I'm just too handsome that the world don't want to lose me yet huh, you think?'' Saglit akong natawa sa sarili kong biro ngunit kalauna'y lumabas na ang mga pinipigilang luha.
"You used to laugh at my stupid humor...'' I said and covered my face with my hands.
"It's been 3 years babe, and no one laugh at my jokes anymore...
what should I do now?
I miss you so much...''
I cried everything, all the pain, the loneliness, the longing...
I poured it all out...
It's all I can do, anyway,
so I do it almost everytime.
...and the rain does too.
PAUWI galing sa trabaho ay naisipan kong mag-grocery ng maalalang wala na nga pala akong stacks sa bahay. Habang naglalakad tulak-tulak ang shopping cart ay napadaan ako sa may baking aisle at kusang nahanap ng mata ko ang nutella spread at akmang kukuha nito ngunit natigilan ako ng maalalang allergic ako rito at wala namang ibang kakain nun sa bahay.
