Your Euphoria

Chapter Thirty-Four: Havoc

Long chapter

Campbell's POV

I work out in my room as music plays in my ears, I've been getting messages from Maddy, Lexi and Kat all trying to get ahold of me but I'm ignoring all of them

I'm not about to let her disrespect me like that no matter how I feel about her especially since she had no right even saying that shit, plus I went off the handle again and I can't let that happen again

I just can't....

(This song is playing throughout this part of the dream sequences, like Rue's scene with the song^^^^)

I can't let my mothers words continue to get to me

Her words keep ringing in my head over...and over...and over again

"I can't.....I can't fight back but you can Campbell"

"You have that rage built up inside of you from watching me get hit and beaten........I want you to use it, use it to hurt this man every chance he takes to hurt you....unleash it on him if he tries you, do what your mother couldn't do"

"Listen to me Campbell...you are way stronger than your father, more than you know and I will not have you letting him do what he did does to me to you ever and I'll be dammed if I don't tell you this so listen up

"Fuck!" I yell as I throw my weights across the room and run my hands through my hair, I fall to my knees as I try and get my breathing in control

"She's wrong....she's wrong.....violence can't help me every time" I whisper to myself as I rock back and forth

I start to feel tears coming down my face when suddenly I feel arms around me, I slowly look up to see my mother standing there above me smiling

The image of her before she was on drugs, she pulls me up and caresses my face softly as she smiles widely

"My beautiful babygirl....I'm so proud of you" Mia whispers as she pulls me into a hug, I let out a big breath as I hold her close in my arms tightly

"I'm sorry.....I wish I did more" I say as tears pour down my face, she runs her hands through my hair and pulls away

She cups my face and smiles at me lovingly

"I'm not mad that you listen to me.....you always protect yourself and your heart......but never let that anger control you....you deserve the happiness I so wished I could give you baby....find it...at all costs, find your happiness...I found mine too late" She says before pulling me close and kissing my forehead lovingly

"I love you mom....I miss you so much" I say and she smiles

"I love you too Cam...I miss you too...and I'm so proud of you" She says............

I wake up with a gasp as I look around, I see I'm on the floor still causing me to groan and stretch my muscles

I hear the front door close causing me to frown a bit before getting up, was that a real dream....is she really proud of me

I sigh and rub my face with my hands in exhaustion before going over to my bed and sitting down, I look at my phone to see Maddy has called me a dozen times and sent me a range of sad to loving texts apologizing profusely