Hidden Feelings (Rosé x FemReader)

Chapter 8

Y/N POV:

It's been a month now and I've been very distant from everyone. I'm such an idiot. I miss them especially Rosie but my insecurities get the better of me to keep distance. I'm a fucking coward I wish I can just tell her how I feel but I'm too scared to possibly have our friendship ruined.

What if I make her uncomfortable after telling her? I mean I don't even know if she's into girls. I doubt it but overall I can't lose Rosie and I'll do anything just to keep her in my life, even if that means she isn't mine.

I've been less talkative in our group chats and making excuses to not hang out or eat with them at lunch. I do have class with most of them but I've been keeping distance during then too, like at P.E I talk and hang with Yuna and Lia instead of Somi, Jimin and Bam.

I really miss them..

Third period just finished so I grab my things and make my way over to the library with my laptop in hand to edit some of the photos I've taken.

I find a seat near the back and set my laptop down with my lunch. I didn't feel like cafeteria food today so before school I decided to stop by subway to buy a sandwich and some snacks.

As I take my seat, getting into the work I notice a pair of hands plop onto my table. I instantly stop editing and look up to see the angry eyes of Lisa. I sigh before speaking.

"Hey Lisa"

"Where have you been?"
I can hear the anger in her tone which is something I'm not used to hearing often, especially towards me.

"Uh, in school"

"Don't be a smart ass right now Y/n, you know what I meant!"
She now yells at me in a whisper, I sigh again before calmingly speaking.

"I've been busy Lis"

"That's bullshit Y/n! What the hell is going on? and why the hell are you avoiding us?"
I wasn't appreciating this much yelling from her even if I deserve it. I usually can control my emotions very well but right now I can't and just snap.

"Lisa! I'm not avoiding you I've just been fucking busy alright so can you stop!"
I angrily close up my laptop before shoving it into my bag and standing up with my lunch to leave the library.

As I exit the library, I'm quickly forced to turn around by Lisa's hand that holds a grip on my wrist.

"No! We aren't done talking. What the hell has happened to my best friend? Because this isn't her. She's never been this quiet and distant and I don't like it!"
Looking into Lisa's eyes as they slowly start to form tears just breaks my heart.

'I'm so sorry Lisa..'

"Lisa you need to let go of my hand, I don't want to fucking talk about it so just leave me the hell alone!"
She slowly releases her grip from my wrist and I walk away leaving her standing alone.

Throughout our friendship we've hardly ever argued. This is my fault, I'm hurting her just as much as I'm hurting myself. I'm such a dick for pushing away the only people who truly care about me the most.

I just can't be around them, I'm too hurt right now. It's best I stay away and let Jimin take his chance with Rosie, I know he has more of a chance with her than I do.

As I make my way into the auditorium, I see Lia and Yuna sitting in the front row watching their play be rehearsed.

I take a seat behind them quietly and place my face between their shoulders and whisper 'Hey' which makes them jump out of their seats while placing their hands on their chests.