How am I meant to feel? I can't FEEL frustrated because I've been told my whole life that that's a choice not a feeling. I have been told that no one can Make You Feel Anything that it's a choice. I think I need to choose some feelings out of the jar and start getting to work choosing my actions because I FEEL like everything it out of control. It's all spinning. So much is going on around me and I can't find the nearest exit. The way to escape was you. But you make me FEEL the bad things now. The feelings that got good with someone else were ripped away by you because you want me to have the bad feelings. You are making my choice for me. That's not what I was told. I was told I could pick my own, but you are taking that away from me. That's not fair.
LIFEs NOT FAIR
You get to choose for you and for me. That's not fair. I want my life. I want to smile the way I did a few weeks ago. Before all the boy Bull shit started. I would have NEVER called you any names until they became true. Maybe I made you feel because I called you a name and now you want to be responsible and mature. That's going to take time to develop. I want every person I meet to have a better life after me. I hope yours is great.
-C.S.
