𝙂𝙃𝙊𝙎𝙏𝙄𝙉𝙂 • hanako-kun [♡]

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[Name] has always been unfortunate when it comes to love, she had crushes, had a situationship that lasted for three weeks and was ghosted in an unlabeled relationship. When she thought that crushing on a guy was hard for her, what more when crushing on a girl? Even if she swings both ways she will always end up by herself (no pun intended).

Why is she seeking love in the first place anyways? Is it because that's what most teenagers are after currently when they enter highschool? [Name] was caught in a whirlwind of fitting in since she's at her age where other people's validation matters instead of hers. If there's one thing that [Name] wished she had known before entering in a relationship with Souho is that it will never be like in fanfictions and movies.

Because what is shown in fiction is an idea of what love should look like on the surface. [Name] wasn't told about the days where they wouldn't talk, the coldness, the lack of affection, and the times where he isn't always there when she needed him. Maybe she hoped too much for a sweet romance just like Yashiro describes it to be.

But Yashiro's fantasies were nothing like [Name]'s past relationship. Souho was no prince, he was just a regular guy who happens to share some interests like hers and that they clicked. [Name] had someone in a talking stage with a girl named Hua though neither of them tried to progress things further.

After those cringy flashbacks during the night, [Name] realized is that she's rushing to get into a relationship like it's a one time opportunity that will never come back. Like Tsuchigomori told her last time that even people who share a lot in common and have a deep connection don't always end up with each other.

[Name] hugged her pillow. "Wow, it's been a while since I moped." She grabbed her phone by the bedside to scroll through her social media to take her mind off of her thoughts. "I haven't opened my Instagram account—whoah jumpscare!" [Name] completely forgotten that she and Souho still followed each others accounts. "Damn Souho you can't even be independent for once, going to another girl after ghosting me? Sheesh I thought you're okay with being alone..." [Name] deadpanned at the sight of Souho and his girlfriend on a post. "I didn't know I was following a fish selling account—unfollowed and blocked."

The [hair color] haired girl smiled in satisfaction. "That's better, no more ghoster in my feed." Then her smiled softened like in some sort of relief. "It was a little lonely but I have my friends to keep me company."

"I suddenly have the urge to clean my room what the fuck." [Name] stood up from her bed and walked away to the door to see where to move things out. She put her hand under her chin, glancing around the room. "I'll move the bed over there and along with my desk, the bookshelf should move a little, I need to arrange my manga, games and my figurines—I also need to arrange my kpop albums and merch. Man am I that messy?" [Name] scratched her head confusingly. She clapped her hands together. "Alright let's get cleaning."

[Name] moved her bed next to the windowsill, it may be heavy but she had some strength to pull and push around. After moving some furniture around, she took away her manga, albums, and figurines to a different area to arrange them. "Looking a little productive aren't we [Name]?"