I can't break through his world. He's living in shades of blue. I can't do anything about it. He doesn't show himself; he lives in shadows. He always gets up and just goes.
I tried to ignore all the things that were happening between us and find another who fit the role I wanted, but they didn't feel like him.
He's a burning house I want to live in. He's the danger I want to walk into. The path that i know, a familiar path.
I tried to look the other way. I found someone who loves me like I love him, but it didn't feel right.
I only think of him when I look at the other men in front of me, and my mind is not just there; it is with him. My mind is flying away when he's not there.
I only think of how many days I could see him again. I am counting the days that feel like months, but my heart's at ease when they see him, even though all I do when I am around is look around the floor.
He looks at me like he's about to talk to me, but he didn't do it in any way. He always looks at me and stares at my whole existence, and it makes me really sad.
