cant stop thinking about you. (jacksons diary)

chapter 2. 3/17

chapter 2.
davids pov.
(same night as last chapter)
It was night, and i didnt feel like sleeping. my mind was stuck on exer. did he really think of me as his favorite person? ..what did that even mean?!

i mean, i guess im a good friend, right? i hug him, support him,.... love him, i guess. but isnt that just me yknow, being me? i mean i do that to pretty much all my other friends. maybe not the last one, but the rest.

it was already 1 am when the ranting from my brain stopped. i needed to clear my head.

i stood up, quietly, so the floorboards wouldnt screech, walking to my bag.

once i reached into my bag, i felt around inside, i couldnt see because it was too dark. i moved my hand around.. notebook...pencil case...binder..love note for exer... it wasnt there.

where did it go?! where is it!! its not in my bag. it couldnt be at my dads, i always bring it with me!..wait.

I LEFT IT AT EXERS..! how? no, stratch that, WHY?! out of everyone, why exer?

i..hate this. i really hate this. it was now just my blank mind and that stupid ticking clock on the wall. no noise, other than my loud thoughts.

why, just why.

222 words.
damn i made this sad-