TW : trauma, self harm
it was the next day and Arisa didn't went to school that day. She decided it was best if she just stayed and rest alone
that however let her to start overthink everything that had happened last night
maybe she was too hard on them
maybe they deserved it
maybe she should've listened to their side of the story
but bullying? that's something she really was sensitive about
the girl used to be bullied for her size and how nice she was
people often stab her in the back and bullied her and she just took it as a normal thing till that one point when she got back home with a bruised face and lip
that was when Fahmi found out she had been bullied and started being overprotective over her
he had always told her to fight back and never let people bully her but now he's the one who does it
thinking of her experience getting bullied Arisa can't help but blame herself
she felt so shit and weak
Arisa is a very sensitive person, she had an unstable mental health most probably because of the traumatic incident during her childhood
her mother was abusive but she loved her
their mother had always guilt tripped them and gave them silent treatment
out of nowhere, the depressive girl was sitting on the edge of her bed having a mental breakdown
the girl started throwing everything she saw including her phone
shattered pieces of glass and some other objects was seen around the room
she felt as if everything was falling apart
she started to walk to her locker to take some medicine
that was when she saw it
she saw the blades in her wallet
Arisa's POV
i kept it
ive been clean for 3 months
but i kept it
i still kept it even though i wanted to quit
but i couldn't
i knew i would always go back to it as my source of comfort
its a bad coping mechanism but its the best way i had
third person POV
Arisa started walking closer to her table reaching for the wallet on the table
the wallet had a clear pocket where it was full of blades
there was about 5 blades in there
she was browsing through the pocket full of blades when suddenly the door slammed open
there stood Amirr who had been searching for her disappearance
Arisa accidentally took her hold away from the wallet out of shock which made the blades in the girl's wallet drop out one by one
looking at the scene , the boy was shocked as he had never seen such a scene in real life
the boy carefully walked past the shattered objects and blades over to the girl who had broke down once again
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my sickness
FanfictionNoor Arisa Ardina was not an ordinary girl, she was talented yet carefree and bright; but at the age of 10 Arisa was diagnosed with leukopenia. Her father is a principle and her mother left her and her brother to marry another man. She was homesc...
