𝑶𝒖𝒓 𝑭𝒂𝒖𝒍𝒕 {Scaramouche x Reader} ENGLISH VERSION

𝑭𝒊𝒇𝒕𝒆𝒆𝒏𝒕𝒉 𝒄𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒕𝒆𝒓

Heya ! I'm sorry I had completely forgotten this translation !! 😭😭

Pdv Scaramouche :

<<So that's where you were hiding... I say as I gently approach the girl.

I had heard everything, from her reproaches to her request to help me, and deep down I was glad. I wanted to be able to trust someone completely again, I wanted to accomplish my revenge but I needed someone by my side.

Because even if "Scaramouche" was cold and cruel, "Kunikuzushi" had a need for affection and love so great that it was equalled only by the pain residing in the empty hole that awaited the arrival of the heart that was supposed to complete it.

My fury will never subside, but...
I want love...

I need love, no one ever gave me love, not my mother, not these humans...

This thought brought tears to my eyes, I was finally admitting to myself this desire that I had repressed for so many years, considering that no one in this world would want to grant my only wish. She was the only one to accept me, to give me some, I wanted to cherish her, to love her, to embrace her and spend my life with her! But...

I won't do her any good...

-Y/n... I... I want to be closer to you, I trust you, you're the only one among all of us who really wants to help me... I... I said, stopping a few centimetres away from her, almost glued to her back.

I fell silent, knowing full well that what I was going to say next would only get us into trouble. I shouldn't tell her, I couldn't. She had her whole life ahead of her, I couldn't tell her.
She had her life ahead of her, I shouldn't waste it on selfishness.

These feelings, I have to keep them, and hide them from her.

-Scara-

-No, don't call me that anymore... Please, I don't like that name, it's not mine. Call me by my real name, call me Kunikuzushi. I intimated, hesitating to take her in my arms.

-If that's... what you want, then I'm glad you trust me enough to give me your name... Kunikuzushi, that's cute...!" she said, gradually calming her sobs.

Y/n turned to me and seemed to hesitate for a few moments, then she gently took me in her arms, resting her head on my shoulder, whispering brief thanks. I returned her embrace, letting two single small tears fall down my cheeks.

Even though we were standing, our position was still comfortable, so we didn't move. I didn't want to let her go, and I prayed that she wouldn't break our embrace. I needed it, needed that physical contact with her, her warmth, her love, her.

Having her by my side was fundamental to me, without her I would have cracked up a long time ago at the fatuis, the rare times I saw her were the only times my days were less dull.

I would die for her, I would do anything to make her happy, even if this world is a lie, she is the truth. I don't want anything to happen to her, so...

So...

I'll make sure she doesn't get into trouble...

-Y/n... I beg you, don't go like this again... You look beautiful in that outfit, I'm sorry I didn't tell you earlier, I didn't know how to express it... Do you... forgive me?" I whispered, hoping she wouldn't reject my apology.

-I'm not... I don't blame you, Sca- well, Kunikuzushi... You're not used to all these things, I know..." she said in a breath, trembling.

If you only knew how much I would like to be used to it for you, if you only knew...

I wish it were as spontaneous as Dalhm, showering you with compliments, but I can't, I don't know all that... I wasn't taught it, and I've held back for too many years to open my heart so easily...

Even with all my good will, I can't do it by myself...
Sorry Y/n...

-Tell me, can I call you 'Zushi...? It's shorter to say, and-and I think it's cuter... Well, if you don't mind I-

-No, no, no, no. Call me whatever you want, I don't care... I cut her off as I clung to her a little more, now letting the tears flow freely down my neutral face.

As long as you call me...

I hated that weak part of me, I hated it but I also loved it. I knew it was the real me, and that the real me was the one she liked...

But if I remained myself, how could I defend her...?

I have to silence my feelings, my emotions and my desires.
For her sake, for her happiness, for her to be well, away from me...

-Zushi, let's go home... Hilma and Dalhm will be worried if we take too long to get back.' she whispered, pulling away from me.

I reflexively held her, hugging her tighter. I buried my head in her neck, silently begging her not to leave, not to go away.

I had to reluctantly part with her, the minutes ticking by and seeing that she wanted to get back to the café so as not to worry the two managers. But just as we were about to leave, the phoenix appeared.

It slowly descended from the sky, dropping some of its fiery feathers as it flapped its wings, and came to rest on a slightly raised rock, gazing at us with its fiery eyes.
Y/n seemed surprised, and I was a little too, after all we had not seen him since we arrived in Sumeru. During the journey, we saw him from time to time, flying in the distance at a great altitude.

-Seeing you like this makes me very sorry, especially when I know that Y/n has not told you everything about his real motives. the sacred bird chirped in his deep voice.

-What do you mean...?" I choked as I looked at the young woman, hoping that the phoenix was lying.

She answered nothing and lowered her head, not daring to face my gaze.

So she too...?
Is she going to betray me too?

-Y/n, why don't you explain your mission to him? He has the right to know, especially since he seems to want to protect you more than anyone else. continued the firebird, shaking his feathers.

-Yes, you're right... Kunikuzushi, I didn't tell you everything and I'm sorry, I was afraid that you wouldn't want me anymore after having learned the truth so I didn't dare to talk to you about it, forgive me... she revealed to me by bowing slightly.

-Y/n, I-I don't understand, explain yourself... Whatever happens, I'll help you, I swear it... I begged her, desperately seeking her gaze, as she did earlier.

-'Zushi, the truth is...>>

Chapter 15 - End

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