Can't Fall in Love Again

Chapter 55

CARLY

"Pang-ilan mo na yan Bei" Ara

Nag didinner na kami ngayon. Wala naman kaming ginawa kanina kundi matulog lang

"Grabe ka" Bea pouts

Nakarami na kasi si Bea sa food na may gata haha

"Pasalamat tayo kay Jho, she ordered that kaninang lunch" Ara

"Yeah thanks to her" Bea

"Ara, puntahan mo kaya yun. Baka lunod na yun sa trabaho" I told to Ara, tapos na kasi siyang kumain

Hindi namin kasama si Jho ngayon sa dinner kasi nagpa iwan. May gagawin daw na trabaho

"I'll buy her food later, don't worry. Samahan muna kita" Ara

"Para namang hindi mo kilala si Jho, Carly. Alam mo namang workaholic yun" Mich

"True" Sati

"How long does it usually take until she's done with her work?" Bea

"Depende sa dami" Carly

"Ahhhh ok. Uhm what is her comfort food ba? It might help her finish her work faster" Bea

"Paiba-iba comfort food nun, pero comfort drink meron haha"

"Coffee?" Bea

"Nope, she hates coffee. Smirnoff Mule, it's her comfort drink" I chuckled

"A vodka?" Bea

"Yup, pero at night lang naman. Pero sa umaga she likes to drink matcha ganun"

"Ahhh ganun ba" Bea

JHOANA

I can't stop thinking of Bea. I feel like I'm still dwelling in the past.

Wala naman talaga akong ginagawang trabaho dito sa villa, ginawa ko lang excuse yung work ko para umiwas muna saglit

"It's ok self. Kaya ko 'to" sabi ko sa sarili ko

I'm talking to myself in the mirror

"Wag nang umasa ha? Matagal na kayong tapos"

"Eh we didn't get together naman, so baka pwede na magsimula? Fresh start, how about that?"

"No! Hindi pwedeeee. Hindi mo na siya mahal. Nabura na rin memories niyo, hindi kana maalala"

"Right. Hindi. Ko. Na. Siya. Mahal, period. Tama na rin siguro na hindi niya ako maalala"

I take a deep breath

Then lumabas muna ako para silayan ang dagat. Habang nakatingin sa dagat, hawak ko yung necklace that Nico had given me when he was still alive. My necklace with Chloe's ashes inside

"I miss you, baby" sabay halik sa necklace

"Mommy loves you so much and misses you every day.....Your dad is here already, but she can't recognize me. I'm just a new friend to her now. Sorry ha? Sorry for not giving you a chance to meet each other. Habang buhay ko 'tong kasalanan sainyo ng daddy mo" and tears began flowing

"Haaay wag ka na kasing iiyak, Jho" I said to myself at pinunasan ko ang luha ko

Nang feeling ko ok na ulit ako, I thought of sending Carly a message. Then I opened my phone, it was full of texts and missed calls from my friends