I thought being alone would be more peaceful than I thought because you wouldn't be feeling so afraid of doing your things. You won't be thinking how they are going to react toward it. And lastly, you won't be feeling so guilty driving your way routing to your dreams.
I was an only child. Ever since I was a kid, I have dreamed of my twin to whom I can vent my chest without having a second thought of telling my mind. But sadly, I can't. Both of my parents don't want any child anymore for some reason I don't know. And since I am the only one who can inherit their business and other belongings, I was told that I would be the one to handle them once they retired. Of course, I agree back then because I idolized them and I still don't have anything on my mind.
While I was growing up, when I entered secondary school, I had a relationship. It was good to feel because there is another someone I can love and who can love me. And that is Danniel Vernon, my once Dave Tejara.
Even though we were underage, we knew that we were so in love with each other. I can feel it through his efforts and care. Well, he was the one who comforted me through my ups and downs. He's also the one who helped me discover what I want in life. And that is to be a model someday.
But then, we had a problem after we graduated secondary school. I thought it was just a phase. But I was wrong, he left me without giving a word. I tried to open up, but my parents insisted to me that it was just an infatuation. That is when the problem between me and them started.
As I was taking up college, they also forced me to accept their inheritance to the point I felt not worthy of love anymore. I feel like... I am starting to get neglected by the people I expected to be.
Second year of college, I found out that I have one cousin on my father's side. That is Dahlia. But I never thought we would be this close now because whenever I look at her... she's so different from who I am. It's like... she's so superior. She has a lot of talent. Unlike me? I can't even cook simple dishes...
But that eventually changed when I saw her starting to struggle with her own life... It's like a realization that every person in this world has their problem... It's just a matter of how we handle it, I guess?
Now, she's even helping me to stand up for my life. She contacted my parents who abandoned me when I chose this kind of lifestyle... and when I rejected their request to take over their business... I can't believe she would do it for my betterment.
"Yuri-chan... Naghihintay sina Tita at Tito sa sala. Hindi ka pa ba lalabas diyan?" mayamaya'y biglang sulpot ni Dahlia habang abala pa rin ako sa pagtimpla ng ihahandang kape't tinapay para sa mga bisita... or should I say, mga magulang kong itinapon ako na parang isang basura.
Dapat prepared talaga ako... Kasi halos dalawang linggo rin ang lumipas noong sinabihan ako ni Lia-chan tungkol dito. Pero heto ako, binabagalan ang pagtimpla. Sinusubukan palakasin ang loob. Hindi ko kasi alam kung anong ia-akto ko sa harap nila. Pinabayaan nila ako, e... Dahil lang sa tinanggihan ko 'yong alok nila na saluhin ang kompanyang hindi na nila nagawang isalba.
Lumunok ako nang lumunok saka tumikhim. "S-sandali na lang ito," aniko at binasa ang nanunuyo kong mga labi. Lumingon pa ko sa kaniya at pilit na ngumiti.
"Yuri-chan... Sabihin mo lang sa amin ni mommy Crys kung hindi ka pa handa ngayong araw... Puwede namin silang pakiusapan na sa ibang araw—"
"Hindi na," putol ko sa sinabi niya. "Kakayanin ko." Mas mabuting ngayon na ito matuloy kaysa mas lalo lang siyang tumagal sa dibdib ko. Ayoko ng magbitbit ng mabigat. Ayoko ng magkimkim ng sama ng loob. Nakakapagod na rin kasi.
"Sigurado ka ba? Baka napipilitan ka lang kasi nandiyan na sila... Maiintindihan naman siguro nila iyon."
"Okay lang, Lia-chan. Pangako. Patapos na rin ito..."
