Forever Yours ( Bts X Reader)

Chapter 14 *Taehyung*

Happiness, joy, confusion, guilt and frustration all kind of complicated emotions rushing through me

All my life, I've always wanted to meet my soulmate before and after not getting my soulmark but as time passed and months turned into years the little bit of hope crumbled

Seeing the heartbroken and sad faces of my hyungs as months turned into years and they all stopped being themselves

Jin hyung putting all his love on army, yoongi spending late nights at his studio, hobi and jimin putting all their time into perfecting of dance move, namjoon spending more time on our schedule.

Jungkook my bestfriend being the most crushed among us, sometimes late at night when I pass by his room, I some time always hear light sniffles and crying coming from his room

It was really hard on us all, then I met lu-min and the first time we met she seemed nice, fun and quite charming also. She was an upcoming model, who just moved to korea and still didn't know how to speak the language

She was shy and sweet and I decided to be her friend, we met at coffee shop and got to know each other even more and one year later we became a couple

It was a beautiful relationship, lu-min was soulless and I also didn't have my soulmark rendering me soulless also

She met the boys and they also had a good impression of her and knowing that the boys liked her, it made me think I had made the right decision

But after two years of dating, our relationship came to a standstill, no more texting constantly or just sitting with each other and watching a movie. It just became bland, lu-min started becoming spiteful, demanding and rude to others

The sweet, kind girl I knew vanished and turned into a horrible person, she started pressuring me into making our relationship public but I refused and also complained about how we never go on fancy date and always stay home watching movies

I still wanted to give her a chance but it crumpled when I saw her flirting with one of my hyungs especially jungkook knowing full well he was afraid of girls, she became touchy and flirty with them and I knew my hyungs kept it a secret in other to make me happy even if they filled uncomfortable by her

But they did stop her from coming when she pleased and I was okay with that

I wanted to break up with her but anytime, I brought the topic up she always found a way to confuse me and make me fill guilty

And now we've been together for five years and it has been absolute torture. I sometimes wonder why I'm still with her maybe because I still think the sweet girl is still in their the girl I fell in love with

But was it actually love and not just attraction that I felt for her because somewhere deep down I know that I could never stop thinking about my soulmate, that their would always be a bottomless hole in my heart. Which my soulmate can only fill

Because, I know that even if I try to think I'm soulless my heart will always think otherwise clinging onto that hope that I have a soulmate out their even and I know my heart already belongs to whoever they me

I being with lu-min is just out of self guilt because I know I used her because of my depression to fill hole but I know I don't love her and even if I did it all just vanished years ago and now there's nothing but just a facade of being happy and in love for my hyungs

And then a new model also came to work at Big hit and she was beautiful, her name was emma and when I first saw her, I felt my heart do a backflip and feel a strong pull towards her not attraction but a bond towards her

Which is really funny because I still didn't get my soulmark but somehow I thought she was my soulmate, which i tried to ignore but couldn't because I knew I was falling deeply even madly in love with her

She became, my reason to wake up with a smile and happy any time I think about her just thinking about her made being with lu-min tolerable but I knew it was a toxic relationship suffocating me

So I decided to breakup with lu-min after the concert, which she didn't even bother to show up to but who would have known that I'll get my soulmark at the concert with the rest of my hyungs and our soulmate was none other than emma

To say, I was happy would be an understatement because I was over the moon on realising that the girl, I loved was my soulmate more like I and my hyungs soulmate but you get the drift

And when we all decided to invite her into new home seens we moved out of the old one because of lu-min and I won't blame the guys this estate his amazing and the security is great

And I'm so happy to know that my soulmate is the first girl to actually step into our home. We all waited anxiously for are arrival until we heard the parking of the van and knew she was here with seijin

Bubbles of anxiety coursed through me as I heard the door open and in came my soulmate facing us all and introducing herself to us in her angelic voice causing my heart to flutter

But when it came to my turn to introduce myself to her. I just suddenly froze realisation hitting me like a gust of wind

How could I introduce myself when I'm dating someone else

I can't do this to my mate

Suddenly the urge to tear up comes to me full blast but, I push them back

But then my mate did something unbelievable, she hugged me filling my nostrils with her strawberry scent as I feel my face redden

Making up my mind with the realisation

I had to no have to breakup with lu-min

That thought swelling through my mind giving me the motivation as I hug my mate back

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