Off-limits

Chapter 46

Nandini's pov

I gripped onto Manik's hand as we walked inside this cafe brunch place on campus. I could see people walking by us as we pass them walking closer to the cafe but I swear my head wasn't in the right place

Yes, yes I had told him that I didn't care if the baby was his or not, that if it was his, I would be fine but would I really be? Would I be able to start a life with him, knowing I might be snatching him from his little family?

I trust him and I trust his trust that if he thinks she is lying then she may be but my heart aches thinking about it. Its such a heavy feeling, almost like my chest is being crushed by rocks.

"Hey" I felt manik's hand pull back making me realize we were right in front of the cafe

"Mhm yea"

"Are you okay love? You look a little pale" he says caressing my face

"Im okay, can we mhm can we get this over with?" I ask

"Of course" he whispered

We walked inside and got seated at this table.

"Can I start with some iced coffee's with vanilla shots and extra espresso in one of them, a chicken wrap, a chicken salad and ill grab a vanilla cupcake too" manik orders

"Can we do both the coffee's with extra espresso" I ask the waitress

"Sure thing" she says leaving

I was nervous and not jsut before an exam nervous, I was mhm getting your period when you are wearing white jeans, no pads or tampons with you and a huge stain on the back of your pants nervous.

"Baby what's wrong" he asked rubbing my thigh under the table

"Nothing, im jsut hungry" I lie

"I don't like lies, it"

"It breaks relationships I know, manik I am nervous" I whisper

"I know love, I can feel it but I"

"Shh don't promise anything to me, not until we know for sure. Manik you are a man of your words, don't promise something we aren't sure of" I said caressing his hand that was over my thigh

he nods but I can see how disappointed he was, he looked like I had disappointed him, but I jsut didn't want any fake promises

"Manik"

"Its fine" he replies but I know it wasn't

"Mani I"

"Nandini, this doesn't feel like you trust me, I swear it feels like a part of you or all of you thinks I am the father, almost like you are sure of it" he accuses

"Its not that manik"

"Its fine, you are right lets get this over with" he said

I know that the past 3 and now 4 days I have done nothing but ruin what we have. First I take my anger out on him then I lied to him, when I could have told him the truth.

I pretended like his love didn't matter to me, and I let him think we are jsut friends. Yes it hurt him but it was hurting me too to see him tearing up, seeing him so weak and broken.

"Hi baby" I looked up to see veebha

manik got up and hugged, now I would be lying if I said that didn't hurt but lets be honest I let aryaman put his hands on my waist too. Not that this was tit for tat but karma is real I suppose

"Hi, mhm how are you? The baby?" He asks sitting back down

"Good, why is she here?" She asked throwing me a disgusted look