to the best friend I used to have:
your beauty lived in my heart
during the few months when
I had you for my own
I can still remember your laugh
I thought sacrifice would be enough
to distract you from how ugly I am
and so I sold you my soul
but it wasn't greater than the love
that you received from other men
why did you lie to me?
how could you run away?
if you wanted something more
out of me,
why didn't you say it?
I can be attractive
I can be flirty
I can be perfect
like the other men you left me for
and suddenly I have all the blame
I tried to change myself for you
I forgave you for
ditching me
I forgave you for
lying to me
I forgave you for
hurting me
and now you're asking for it back
it's too hard to look at your soft face
and keep my anger
our friendship will never be the same
