Falling in Love With My Brother

Chapter 29

Eventually, the school year ended. Parang kay bilis lang ng panahon and I failed to notice it. After the graduation, our parents immediately planned for a vacation somewhere in Europe. I enjoyed the time we spent there. Traveling together with your family is a lot more fun. Na-enjoy ko rin ang snow doon and I explored a bunch of new things out of my bucket list.

Nalungkot ako nang matapos na ang bakasyon namin. I wish we could stay longer. I feel miserable while packing my things. Alam ko kung ano ang naghihintay pagkauwi namin ng Pilipinas. I will be back to my old normal highschool life, ganun din si kuya Waylon as well as Sam. As for Tyler, he will leave our house. Nanlulumo ako habang paulit-ulit na inaalala ang bagay na yon. I can't imagine a normal life without him being around. Nasanay na ako sa presensya niya.

College na siya ngayon at dito nga siya sa Maynila mag-aaral pero malayo ang byahe papunta sa University na papasukan niya kaya kailangan niyang umalis ng bahay. Inconvenient na masyado kapag uuwi-uwi pa siya dito. Sa ngayon ay nakahanap na siya ng condo malapit sa University kaya doon siya pansamantala.

Diretso ako sa kwarto nang makauwi na kami. I feel tired and drained, probably because of the jet lag. Dire-diretso na ang tulog ko hanggang sa magising kinaumagahan.

Kuya Tyler was already packing his things when I entered his room. Ngayon ang araw na aalis siya. Masyado siyang busy sa ginagawa kaya hindi niya ako napansin na nakatayo sa doorstep ng kwarto niya. I feel sad watching him packing up and preparing to leave.

"Are you really leaving now?" hindi ko napigilang sabihin.

He glanced at my direction and his expression immediately softened. Mabilis siyang lumakad palapit sakin at hinila ako papasok ng kwarto niya. He closed the door behind and secured its lock. Hindi ko na iyon gaanong pinansin dahil sa bigat na nararamdaman.

"Can't you leave tomorrow instead? Or the next day? Or maybe the day after the next?"

I hate how I delivered those words. It sounded like I was almost begging.

Nagsipatakan ang mga luha sa aking mata at wala na akong panahon para itago ito. I feel so stupid for crying over petty things.

He wiped my tears away while staring at me sadly. "Huwag ka ng malungkot. It's hard for me to go if you're being like this."

"Then don't go." mahina kong sinabi.

"I have to visit my school. May mga kailangan din akong asikasuhin doon lalo pa't malapit na ang pasukan. Please understand."

Natahimik ako sa sinabi. I feel hopeless. Aalis na talaga siya.

He cupped my cheeks while looking straight into my eyes. "I'll call often. Uuwi rin ako dito tuwing weekend."

"You'll have your own life there. Magiging busy ka doon and you will meet new people too. Paano kung makalimutan mong bumisita o tumawag manlang dito?" tunog nagtatampo kong saad.

He chuckled while poking my nose. "Silly. That won't happen."

"You promise?"

Tumango siya at ngumiti. "I promise."

Hinubad niya sa leeg ang kadalasan niyang sinusuot na kwintas at nabigla ako nang sinuot niya ito sa'kin. It's a diamond-cut chain that has an oval-shaped pendant na may naka-engrave na kung anong characters sa loob.

"There. I hope this thing will make you feel like I'm with you even when I'm far from reach."

Parang biglang gumaan ang pakiramdam ko. Right. I need to let him go. Masyado akong makasarili kung gustuhin kong manatili siya rito. I feel disappointed with myself for acting inappropriately.