POPULAR (HAN-CENTRIC)

CHAPTER-9

Its been a week since han has been sick. He has been recovering slowly. But it was a relief that he was recovering, chan being overprotective thought he should take him to the hospital.

As he was recovering the time to talk was also getting closer but for now jisung did not speak about the event but he does let minho clean his body which is a sign that he will talk about it, he just need time

As time goes jisung starts to think how will he reveal so much weakness to people he cares so much about, he will just burden them with it, but looks like he has no other option

One beautiful morning jisung gets up from his bed to go downstairs and sees minho cooking and chan doozing off, he had another all nighter

Changbin was sitting on the kitchen stool and jisung without any hesitation and sat on his lap, its just very comfortable

Changbin covered his waist with his big hands securing him in his arms and finally jisung spoke catching other twos attention

Han: I think I'm ready to talk

Chan jumped from his chair and minho looked back

Chan just nodded and all them waited till other members gathered

Seungmin came last but as soon as he arrived jisung holded his hands, even tho they spend most of their time together when they are studying but still seungmin has this mature aura that makes jisung always look for him for advice or comfort and who is seungmin to say no, he loves to hold his tiny hand , they are so soft

Everybody was waiting for this moment and they were preparing themselves for this time too, this is the first time jisung will open up to them so they have to make sure he is not uncomfortable 

Chan: so shall we start?

Jisung stayed quite for some moment, taking a big breath before he started to talk

Han: so after the bullying scandle I was told to not step a foot inside the school before a month so that was harsh but I guess the worst thing was when my father cut of my pocket money or more likely stopped supporting me at all. So now I was on the streets with no money and no home, yes he also kicked me out, now I was all alone but I still had a person who was ready to take me in. It was a old man I call him grandpa who I met when I was a child, I had been supporting him with my pocket money also been taking care of his health after school so that he stays healthy.

The members realized why they never found jisung after school. He was not busy with stupid rich parties but taking care of someone which made them so happy because now they know how kind jisung actually is 

Han: well I went to him to stay for one night because I cannot bother him and I don't want to be a burden but he convinced me to stay with him and to return the favour I took some part time jobs to pay the rent and everything. At first I was able to handle everything but then grandpa fell more ill he needed to be admitted in the hospital but the cost was lot and I could not just sit around so I took more part time jobs forgetting about every other expenditure, my mental health was also not doing that well, I constantly feared that I will.... I will die alone and everyone will hate me even after death. I feared I could not satisfy anyone, that I was useless, an outsider it felt suffocating I felt so alone with so much to do I just needed to talk with someone but I had no one and I did not wanted to open up with grandpa as that would just make him worry and worsen his health. So to cooperate with my inner demons I did this.

There was a long silence after that. The members were so sad, they had no idea what jisung was going through. While they were celebrating about the fact that felix got justice and were happy that they would not have to see him again, he who was wrongly accused was suffering from so much