I love my friends do and I want to show them how much I love them but I can't I try but I just make things worse I want to know the words to say I want to know what to do but all I do is put more presher on them and I do it with out fail I just want to love cair hug and help you but I think I'm getting worse at being a friend I am too happy and too sad it's hard for me to speak with out making sound like I am being mean if you was hanging of a cliff I would reach out my hand and end up needing your help I don't want your help I don't like it when you help me because I can never help you all I want to do is help but your life is harder info with out my ass that can belary spell or can't read or can read a room or who can't be normal I wish I was normal so I could help you with your work or with anything I just want to help you
