Drowning ------ Depressed Tamaki Amajiki

32 - Episode

Amajiki's POV:

I tried to catch Zaiaku before he fell, but I was too slow. His head hit a nearby rock on the ground, and he grunted dazily.

"Sh-Shit, are you okay?"

He didn't respond, but he was definitely still conscious. Not knowing what to do, I felt my heart begin to race and my eyes were becoming teary.

"D-Damnit..."

With trembling hands, I checked his head to make sure he wasn't bleeding and slowly tried to lift him up. I felt him instantly jolt away from me, a terrified look on his face. The sudden change in demeanor shocked me, leaving me frozen for a moment.

"I-I... I don't want it..." He mumbled, scrambling away from me. He covered both of his arms and closed his eyes. "P-Please..."

"Zaiaku I-" I tried to reach out to him, but he slapped my hand away.

"No, get away from me!!! Don't f-fucking touch me!!!"

"P-Please, Zaiaku..." I pleased desperately. "I need to fix your arms..."

"No, no, no... n-no more f-fixes... no... I'm done... don't.... don't make me... p-please... I don't want to be s-sick anymore... I-I can't... I-It hurts... just... please... no... n-no more..."

Feeling useless, I realized he wasn't going to let me get near him anymore. I began to panic as I watched him there on the ground. He was covering his arms to protect them from being injected, but he was gripping them way too tight. His cuts were still open and agitated, since they were relatively fresh. The blood covered his hands, dripping down into the dirt.

I could feel my body trembling as I froze there, not knowing what else to do.

I've never actually been with him when it's this bad

I don't know what to say that'll help him

The only person who would know is probably Ryōsuke

But he's not here...

Who else is there?

I need help...

If he gets self destructive again and doesn't let me near him...

He could really hurt himself

I can't let that happen

Who knows how to help?

I took out my phone and opened my contacts, immediately locking my eyes on the first one I saw.

[Aizawa]

I clicked on it and hovered over the call button. However, since my anxiety was already bad, I couldn't bring myself to press it just yet. Cursing myself for being useless, I turned my screen off.

I'll try to calm him down one more time

But if I can't, I'll have to call him

I know Zaiaku will probably be angry at me for ratting him out

But if he's hurting himself

I don't know how far he'll take it

Based on his past, he doesn't seem to have boundaries in that regard

He could easily overdo it on accident

Or on purpose

Either way...

I can't let that happen...

Anxiety or not

Deciding not to approach him this time, I backed away.