it had become extremely hard to understand where i had come from.my senses had become corrupt. i couldn't see anymore. i couldn't hear. i couldn't taste or feel.
even if i had punched myself in the face, somehow ran over my own body, threw myself out a window —
that sense of detachment seemed to have make itself part of me.it was all real. all the minuscule things i had done to make myself hurt were real, but they did not affect me.
and so, i continued to crush my fingers with bricks
and see how long i could stay under water until i fell unconscious.but one day,
it all came down like an avalanche
all the pain had come to bite me right back,
my senses were alive again
and i felt all the bruises on my body throb.i couldn't stop it, though.
i couldn't stop the horrendous, excruciating aching of my limbs
and i felt myself tear up a bit.
a question i have always asked myself,
why do i do this, if i know it'll hurt?i have yet to find an answer,
but for now, i'll just continue to clean my wounds
YOU ARE READING
insignificance
Poetrynothing but the words that continuously fill my cranium - love, BEE