you tell me you don't want me to end up alone
that you won't be here forever
but don't you know that you are the reason I can't love anyone else?
you're abusive and manipulative,
invasive and cruel,
you're a total narcissist who uses lies to excuse the truth.
you tell me you love me
but you have told me the opposite too
so when I say I'm afraid to love, why can't you understand?
you have belittled me
turned me into nothing
used me until I felt nothing.
you know just how to destroy my self-esteem
how to make my voice sound fragile
how to make my bones weak.
you are not a lover
you were supposed to be a mother
instead all you created was a sufferer out of a daughter.
you can use my skeleton to decorate your walls
use my blood to sacrifice to your god
and my heart to feast upon.
you can hate me
and need me
but you never ever love me.
you love that you can use me
you love that you can abuse me
you love that you can break me.
I am nothing but yours
and you know that I will never be anything more
because I'm just a doll to you, a tool you can use.
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To Be Mentally Ill
PoetryPoetry and songs that stems from trauma and mental illness. Could be triggering. Read at your own risk.