Begin Again

Endings...

"I guess this is the end for us. I better leave now."

With that I grab my bag and keys as I head out of Escala for what I know will be the last time...

Its been 3 weeks since I graduated from WSU, and I broke up with the first man I ever loved. Life feels dull, bleak and gray like the Seattle clouds. I feel like I'd suffocate if I stay here any longer. My mind keeps going back to him, replaying every bit of time we spent together.

How strange it is that one moment I was excited about graduation, and my first boyfriend and everything that was to come and now it is all over. It all came crashing down.

The remains of what I thought would be everlasting Love... The pain, the betrayal, the love that never could be.

Its 4'o clock in the evening and I've not been able to get out of bed, when I hear the doorbell ring. The hopeless romantic in me gets up thinking it might be him. But, it isn't him.

Its the delivery man who gave me a letter. It was an acceptance letter from Weill Cornell Medical Centre in New York. The serendipity of this moment was just beyond what words could describe. This is the opportunity I had been waiting for my whole life. I could not help but dance and scream in joy in my one bedroom apartment in the rainy suburbs of Seattle.

I knew what I had to do now. I  need to get out of Seattle. I need a change and I need to get my shit together. I need to bury these stupid feelings and get my act together.

I pack my stuff and get a ticket to New York. This is exactly the change I needed. This is gonna be good for me. This is what I need.