𝐒𝐀𝐃𝐈𝐒𝐓 || Jungkook

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫-𝟐𝟑

🌸 𝐉𝐈𝐌𝐈𝐍 𝐏𝐎𝐕 🌸

The love of my life wants to die. The day when I got the courage to own up to my feelings and tell Taehyung what I really feel about him was the last fortunate day of my life because each day after that flew away like dreams, and it includes good and bad, both.

I mean, if you're rejected, you would get a no for an answer and if you're accepted, you would get a yes for an answer. It's that easy, right? But the response that I got, left me hanging in middle, not literally though. He didn't reject me, but also didn't say yes.

It happened right on the night me and Y/N planned a secret club night behind her father's back. Me being an over-smart bitch, messaged Taehyung from Y/N's phone inviting him to the fun but that ended up Y/N being in curfew for next four weeks.

I thought, my plan didn't work out when I waited alone at the club for more than three hours but to my surprise, Taehyung showed up in his casual shirt and black pants. He said, he just came to inform me that Y/N won't be coming and I should go home. I mean, he could have texted me too right? But he personally came to inform me so I took the opportunity and bolt for it. I told him that I have feelings for him.

"What feelings?"

He asked me then. I looked at him confused thinking maybe I'm not being clear so I explained him, that I love him romantically.

"Means?" He asked again and that time I knew, there's something wrong with him. He's never smiling, never sad, never happy, and never angry. He's always busy in reading his books which could only mean, he was a psychopath. A person who doesn't understand or feel emotions.

I was confused how Y/N being a psychology major student didn't notice her brother's traits. When I said I liked him, it included my crushing over him since high school, stalking him through Y/N and getting his pictures without permission like a creep in a nutshell. Just because, he's a psychopath doesn't mean I would give up on him or that he can't ever feel love. I'll make him feel love, care and all the emotions he was deprived of.

He told me before leaving, "I'll research about this emotion and let you know if I do love you romantically or not."

That was the reply I received after my love confession. I didn't know what to do at that time rather than waiting for him to complete his research and feel the spark between us.

Everything was normal, at least that's what I thought until he brought me into his real life, until he showed his true self to me. I cried being scared but right then I saw an emotion on his face for me, fear. He was scared that I will back off after seeing his truth and any sane person should do that but I was insane for him and I thought, I can change him.

That day, I thought, If I can make him feel an ounce of emotion, then I can also make him feel all other sentiment because he was not just a psychopath, but also a sociopath.

I still remember the first time he killed someone for me was when I accidentally told him that me and Y/N had a fight with a student in our college and he almost hit me. I tried to laugh it off after, but he wasn't pleased.

When I saw the news that the new head hunter serial killer case was reported and the student was of RSC, I called him, yelling at him over the phone, "you killed him?"

"He shouldn't have touch you."

"Taehyung, why don't you understand? it's illegal. You cannot just kill anyone like a piece of cake!"

"It's only illegal if I get caught."

He replied without any hesitation. That time, I knew, I've got myself into big trouble along with Taehyung. I knew, at that moment, I got him obsessed with me bad and I need to stay away from him. However, it didn't work, he killed more people when I didn't talk to him for days and the thought that even after knowing his goddamn truth, I wasn't able to stop loving him shook me to the core.