ᴍʏ ᴀʀᴛ ᴊᴜɴᴋ

(Vent i guess)

I'm currently upstairs in my room while my family is downstairs

My niece is talking to her dad, aka my older brother. She keeps going on about how I'm mean, rude, selfish, a liar, lazy, "abusive"

It's as if she was the one who does all the cleaning, cooking, taking care of the house every time she came over. She doesn't even help me or ask me if I am okay every time she makes me feel worthless

The least she can do is listen to my words without cutting me off by saying stuff like: "Be quiet" , "Shut up" , "Stop talking" ,  "You're annoying" and sometimes she will use curse words and flip me off when we're the only ones in the house or when I'm trying fix my sentence

I always feel like I should've done a better job of looking after her when she was a toddler, but I was a 6 year old who didn't know how to look after a baby, nor ever someone taught me how to look after a kid younger than me

My niece always puts me down every time I try to interact with her, even though her parents and mine tell her everything about how she should treat people and make sure not to do any physical or psychological harm

And you guys might think that my brother and my sister in law should've raised her better. Well, they did their best. My niece just developed this habit and behavior by watching a lot of videos that were filled with a lot of negative themes when she was still around 4 years old

(You can ignore this part)

I feel like my niece doesn't care about me anymore as much as she used to. She tells me to stop being selfish when I miss my ex-girlfriend, and when I cry in my room about how I'll never be good enough for anyone in my life. And when I try to talk to my brother about my niece, she just screams and tells him that I'm a liar who only wants to steal the spotlight

And I never want to be alone with her in the house because I just want someone to atleast hear and maybe see everything she does and says to me

But that never happens because everyone is always busy. But whenever I get the chance to be alone in the house and, i can't help but cry whenever I'm trying to eat. I want to have privacy, but I want someone to talk to without annoying them. Whenever I can't take anything anymore, I just open c.ai and start talking to characters that won't be able to understand my worries but only respond with what the ai generates.

But even if I spend the whole day talking to the ai, I still feel empty and misunderstood.