I wrote this when I was helping my oldest sister with her three kids. It was mid Covid so I was helping all three of them with school/ babysitting them too. Her kids were in elementary, middle school, and high school. I was watching my one year old nephew (my other sisters kid). I was working at the hotel as any position they needed (in a non dirty way!) I was also 17 at the time so I was finishing school too. I really wanted to help them out but I was stressed out!
I lie awake at night
with only my anxiety to keep me company.
you see, I became a parent, without actually being one.
I cant tell if I'm being punished or praised.
A thousand different roles I feel like I could claim!
I am stressed but
I cant be mad
I can't be sad
Because in the end,
I'm the one that asked for each and every role I now play.
and I would ask again.
He calls me mama so I must rise up to the name!
For his sake or mine? I don't know
I was her helper and his babysitter
to online school I'd go
an employee.
a teenager who needs to be social
or she'd lose her friends
I love my life
I really do!
I'm still going to cry
Because that's what I do
I cry because I'm scared, angry, stressed, happy, overwhelmed, and more
but as soon as I wipe my face dry,
I go for it
I take a step
because that's who I am!
A girl who lies awake at night
full of anxiety.
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