Healing

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A few months ago
I wrote a suicide letter, to whoever finds me dead...
To who ever find me dead,
Know that I tried to live, but life held me tight and strangled me to death
To whoever find me dead,  no that I didn't mean to hurt anyone's feeling
But I've sacrificed my own just to make others happy
I'm tired.

To whoever finds me dead, my heart has bled, and bled till it could not bleed anymore
So it's better to end it all now....

Today, I wrote a suicide note
This time, to whoever finds me alive
To whoever mind me alive, know that it was not easy to get to where I am now
It was not easy to fight all the negative thoughts that covered my brain every day and night like cummulonimbus clouds,
To whoever finds me alive, be patient with me
I'm still trying to find myself it an place full of faces I do not know

I'm still trying to mend my heart and stop the blood from flowing

To whoever finds me alive, please love me
It's all I need

~nathi

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