You knew them before their fam, money and cockiness.
You knew him before he became a womanizer, a player, "the ladies man". You helped them become what they are, now they probably don't give you a second thought. Especially "the ladies man".
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I've gotten to know Marie very well the last couple weeks. She was born in California, her mom is German and her dad is American. Her parents sent her here because they thought it would be good for her to get a better education. Even though this school is full of shit.
Marie is probably one of the sweetest people I've met. Even if she's getting dirty looks or people are talking about her, right in front of her. She smiles at them. She takes, kill them with kindness very literally.
"I still can't believe you have a tattoo! It's so cool!" Marie said.
I chuckle.
"Does it mean something to you? Or did you just like the design?" Marie asks.
My smile fades and I suck on my bottom lip, thinking about it. It meant something very special to me, something so special it hurts to think about.
"It does mean something to me. When I lived in Germany, I was friends with a... boy band I guess you could say. And this was their band logo" I say, thinking about them.
I wonder what they're doing now?
"Wow! They must've meant a lot to you" Marie says.
I nod my head and smile.
They meant the world to me.
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I was in the library currently, with Hannah. She was extra nerdy today.
It was dark out already and I was so tired. Anderson overworks me so much. When I think back on the plan I had to be released early, I get secondhand embarrassment from the thought. I can't believe I thought that would work.
Marie's made me so much happier, but I still feel this empty feeling in my stomach sometimes. It's like I'm not even the same person anymore, I'm no longer reckless or rebellious which sounds stupid, but it's true.
I don't feel that same spark I had a year ago. Could it just be that I've matured? Or that I've completely given up?
It has to be that I've matured.
"You're going to fail if you don't focus," Hannah says making me come out of my thoughts.
"Sorry," I say.
"I know Anderson is strict with you, maybe if you'd stop mopping a dwelling on stupid things. You'd actually do well in school" Hannah says bluntly, looking down at the school book.
I stare at Hannah, a little shocked.
"And hey. Maybe it'd make you less gloomy because it's a little embarrassing" She says.
I frown a little.
Was she right? If I stopped thinking about things that happened in the past, maybe id be a little happier. Maybe if I just focus on the things in front of me. Was it that simple though? Could I do that?
Forget the past?
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"100%. Good job Miss L/n" the teacher says, setting the test down on my desk.
I grin up at her.
I look down at the test. 100% I should be happy, right It aced the test, but not a single ounce of happiness flooded over me. I was never really the best at school, so I feel like this should make me happy.
