The Shadows of the Alpha~Jacob Black~

Chapter 2- Judgemental eyes

Ellie

I looked around the bedroom Jake lead me to. It was cute and small and it smelled like the forrest. The bathroom door was located in the corner of the room, and it looked safe. I couldn't help but think about the mental hospital.

She shoved me towards the shower, her eyes cold and showing no emotion. She turned her back as I walked into the shower. I bit my lip as I held back my tears.

My roommate Ava slit open her wrists with a plastic knife she stole from the cafeteria during breakfast. I woke up to find her in a pool of blood, I held her cold lifeless body until the nurses came in. They sedated me again and I watched unable to talk as they took away her body. Practically throwing it on the stretcher, as if it were a chore.

I pulled my shirt up in order to unwrap my gauzed arm, I sighed when I realized I couldn't do it with one hand.I let out a sigh, trying to forget about that hell hole. I jumped and ran to the corner of the room, anxiety racing through my veins as the door opened.

"Cool your shit, I just have towels for you." I let out an embarrassed breath and walked closer to Jake.

I walked closer to him and grabbed the towels from him, my fingers gliding against his warm ones. I thanked him, but he just looked at me. No doubt I looked like shit, my hair in knots, I probably have permanent dark circles, and I'm pretty sure I'll always smell like bleach.

He took a step closer to me, "do you need help?" I watched his gaze travel to my arm. I didn't want anything else from him, not if he was going to be a dick the whole time. But how else was I going to get this off?

I nodded, "please"

His large, warm fingers ran up my cold skin and he carefully ripped the gauze. He didn't look at me as he pulled it off. He lightly ran his fingers over my stitches and gave me a pained look.

"Carlisle left some medicine and new gauze, I'll wait in here while you take a shower so I rewrap your arm when you get out." His cheeks were burning red and I chose to ignore it.

I grabbed the towels and clothes from my backpack and moved towards the bathroom. I shut the door and quickly turned the lock. I stripped at put my clothes in a pile next to the toilet and I looked at myself in the mirror. Bruises down my sides from the nurses harsh hands, bruises down my arm from injections. I looked at my bloody, bitten down fingernails and sighed as I stepped into the burning water.

I finally let everything out in the shower, I was sobbing. Sobs slivered through my body as I prayed the water would get hotter. We were never allowed hot water in the hospital. I had so many questions. How did Carlisle get me out of the hospital? Did he know my brother too? Did they know who I was? What I was capable of?

I couldn't help but think about Poppy, Clover, and Willow, did they have boyfriends yet? Had Poppy confessed her love for my brother while I was gone? Had they thought about getting my out of there. Had my grandparents given it a second thought after they heard my begging screams as they took me away?

I thought about Jax and his ability to make everyone smile. My mind also wandered to the other members of my brothers pack, mostly our new alliance members. All boys and one girl, their newly found king, Grayson, and I have become good friends. Well, we were before I left. I became close with all of my brothers friends. They were my family, and I couldn't help to be saddened by how long I was in the hospital. I thought about Ander, Cole, Kylie, and Grant, had they coped well with the loss of the rest of their pack, especially their parents?

I had so many questions. I just wanted to hear their voices, I wanted to hear their laughs and I wanted to hear their heartbeats. Did they feel the same about me? I get attached to people very easily but I know they care about me, so why hadn't they come to get me?