Graclynn's pov
"Bro why tf is this in here?" I said while I cleaned out the cabinet under my sink in my bathroom
"Girl idfk, what is it?" My best friend
Zaniyah said while we were on ft
"They're pregnancy test's" I said
"Why do you even have them?" She asked
"You remember when Desi thought she was pregnant?" I said
"Yea" she replied
"Well she came over here and took the tests, and she asked me if she could just leave them over here, because she didn't want her man to get suspicious." I explained
"Oh, well you should take one" she said
"Why the hell would I do that, I mean there's no way that I'm pregnant so that would just be a waste of time." I said
"It would be fun, just do it" she said
"Whatever, hold on" I said
Time skip till after she takes the first test
"Girl what" I said laughing at what Niyah just said
We were just talking about anything while we were waiting for the the test to be done.
The timer went off and we looked at each other
"Oop, you scared?" She asked
"What would I be scared of? I'm not pregnant." I said confidently
"I'm just saying" she said
I flipped the test over and froze
Positive
"You ok?" Niyah asked
"I gonna have to call you back" I s aid grabbing my phone
"Wa-" she started to say until I hung up
Time skip
I felt hot tears as I paced my bathroom waiting for my timer to go off. Right now I was waiting to get the results back from my second pregnancy test, I took one earlier as a joke when I was on ft with my best friend and it surprisingly came out positive.
I am so scared because I've never really desired to have kids, I mean
Its not that I don't want them or hate them but I just never really thought about it to much plus when Duke and I first got into a relationship he expressed that he couldn't see kids in his future, he said and I quote "if it happens, it happens but I don't really want kids especially with my career."
I feel so bad because he's doing so good in his career right now and I know he doesn't want kids and J just don't want him to leave me, I can't do this alone, and if I am pregnant then I don't wanna get an abortion because personally I'm not comfortable with that.
Just as I started to calm down a little bit, I hear me timer go off signaling that it's time to check the pregnancy test, which caused me to start crying again bc I felt a little overwhelmed.
I flipped the test over and closed my eyes tightly, not being ready for the outcome.
Positive
"Omg" I said looking at the test I'm my shaking hands
Even though pregnancy was never really in the cards for me, I never wanted it to go down like this. I wanted to be happily married for at least a year, and then having a planned pregnancy, not accidentally finding out I'm pregnant out of wedlock with my bf who doesn't even want kids, I mean even though Duke and I are in a healthy relationship that doesn't mean I'm ready to have a baby with him.
