PINKY PROMISE -SHAMELESS-

05

"Come on get up." Lip tried to drag me up from the table, since everyone needed to eat there breakfast. I had been lying there for about 4 hours, watching everything move around me and listening to everyone's conversations.

He picked me up, which made ian shout "That's the worse thing you can do." but lip being lip continued anyways, he attempted to put my on the sofa. Instead i fell straight onto the floor and lay down

"See i told you, just leave her. It's was she wants you to do." Ian replied with a piece of toast in his mouth

I crawled with all of the strength i had left, underneath the stairs. There was curtains that had stars on them so i could go underneath it, to have privacy.

After a few minutes, ian came under and sat with me "Look i know how horrible it, feeling so empty and tierd." He said as i laid my head on his knees "But i really need you to take some of my lithium, just to see if it will help you."

"But i don't want to be bipolar, i don't want to feel like i'm crazy." I cried, tears falling onto his adidas bottoms

"Your not crazy, i promise." My dad told me

"What if Mickey gets sick of me?" I continued to cry, i wonder where all this water is coming from.

"He won't, he dealt with me all these years. I know the past few weeks have been horrible you feeling hyper to really low. But the meds balance it out."

"Fine you can take me to a clinic, as-long as you don't put me into a nut house." I smiled at him "and i will take some of your meds in-till i have my own."

He got up from under the stairs and handed me the bottle "Take 2, i will get you some water."

I grabbed 2 out the orange container and took the water my dad gave me. i placed them on my tongue and swallowed, so my dad could see i actually took them.

"Well done, i'm so proud of you. You will feel really drowsy intill they balance out." He kissed my forehead "Carl is the only one going to be home today, so make sure to take some more at lunch."

I nodded, as he walked out the door. These meds was like a sedative, they already are making me feel like a zombie and i only just took them.

Mickey had left for work fairly early, so he wouldn't know that i had taken any meds unless my dad told him.

I walked up the stairs, and took a nap for a few hours. All i was doing recently was sleeping

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The affect of the lithium really had started to kick in, i literally felt nothing. No feelings, or anything i felt so numb.

I walked down the stairs and seen the orange bottles on the counter ready for me to take. I poured them all onto the counter, i scooped every single one up and flushed them. I hated the way they made me feel and every voice in my head was telling me to flush them.

I went outside to smoke à cigarette, on one of the deck chairs from last winter. Even though it was snowing i was only wearing shorts and a t-shirt, but i didn't even feel how cold i was actually getting.

"Brooke." I heard a voice scream, it was carl he must of realised all of the medication was gone. He ran outside "Where is your meds gone? There your dads aswell."

"I flushed them."

"Fuck, now Ian is going to be off his meds aswell. For fuck sake Brooke."

"I hate how they made me feel." I replied taking another puff of my cigarette, i know Carl was mad at me i just couldn't react

Carl dialled Ian "Ian we have a problem, Brooke flushed you meds."

"Ah shit, there expensive as-well. I can't go off my meds they have only just balanced out." Ian groaned "I will be home in 5."

"Okay, see ya." Carl said and hung up the phone

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"Brooke are you sure you didn't take any." Ian asked me trying to figure out what had actuality happened

"No like i keep saying i just flushed them." I replied taking a drag of the cigarette

"Brooke you need to understand, i can't get anymore meds for like a week. Meaning i'm going to be off my meds aswell." He scolded me knowing i wouldn't care at all considering that i honestly felt nothing

"So what." I looked at him "Can you just leave me alone for once?"

"Fuck sake Brooke." Ian said as he went inside

Carl soon came out with a jumper for me to put on, he chucked it at me "Put it on, it's freezing."

I nodded and put the blue jumper over my head, "Thanks Carl."

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MICKEY POV

As soon as i got back from work, ian was complaining to me that he won't have any of his meds since Brooke had flushed them

"Hold on, so we are going to have 2 unmedicated bipolar?" I asked

"Yeah and it's going to be a long journey since the meds will have to balance out again." Ian looked at the ground, he hated being off his meds

"Ahh shit, you sure Monica has none around from before she died."

"Nah she never took her meds, i have called V to see if she can get some but the wait is a week." Ian continued "The only way we can get them is if we send her to a clinic and get diagnosed."

"Fuck it then we will do that, you both need your meds." Ian nodded, picking up his phone and dialling the clinic

After a few minutes of rambling on he began to talk again "Her appointment is in an hour, i don't know how we are going to get her there."

"We will have to trick her."