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My past💔💔

It's going to be just SAD.

a really dark chapter so if you don't like that please don't read!

SAD SAD SAD!

⚠️TW SA, RAPE, SUICIDAL THOUGHTS, SH, ABUSE ⚠️
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"I don't understand, Dean. Why don't you ever talk about your past?! I'm your boyfriend and I want to help you, but I can't if you don't talk to me!"

Dean had another nightmare, just like the last night's. Every night he woke up screaming, crying, sweating and completely out of his mind.

And yes, Cas could just look through Dean's brain and memories to find the answers to his questions. But he wants Dean yo talk to him.

"No, I'm fine Cas."

"Please don't make me do this."

"I'm not gonna talk about my past!"

"Fine."

And with that Cas puts two fingers to Dean's forehead and looks into his memories.

"Please Dad! I'm sorry! I didn't mean to leave Sammy!", Little Dean begs, but his answer is a punch in the face by John.
"You have to follow my goddam orders or I swear I'm gonna feed you to the next werewolf I will hunt!"

"I'm sorry Sammy, but we don't have any money left..."
"But, De, I'm hungry..."
"Here, take my food."

"20 dollars if you give me a blowjob", the older men offered Dean who was 14.
Dean takes the money and they disappear into a dark ally.

"GET OFF OF ME!", Dean yelled, but the men just waves 200 dollars Infront of Dean's face and suddenly Dean stops fighting.

Dean is in the shower, sitting on the floor and crying. "I feel so dirty"

"Just one more cut", Dean whispers and leads the blade to his already bloody arm.

Sitting in his room, alone, with a gun in his hand and his phone in his other hand. He calls Sam, but only the mailbox picks up.
"Hey Sammy,
I just wanted to let you know that I'm proud of you and that I will always be your brother even though you ran off to Stanford. I love you, little brother. Please don't forget me..."
Slowly he raises the gun to his head and whispered into the phone:
"I'm sorry Sammy..."
Dean puts the gun to his head and-

"STOP!"

Suddenly Cas gets kicked out of Dean's memories.

He looks at the hunter Infront of him in shock.

"D-Dean... I'm so sorry, I didn't knew tha-"

"Shut up! Shut up shut up shut up!", Dean says over and over again and covers his ears with his hands, "I don't wanna hear it!"

Hands still over his ears Dean turns around and walks to his room. Before Dean can close the door to his room CAS steps inside and wraps his arms around the ,now crying, hunter.

"I'm sorry Dean... Please talk to me... And let everything out. I'm here for you, my love."

That night Dean and Cas had a long talk and a lot of tears.

But they are there for each other.

Always...

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