Inevitable Love Journey [ZhanYi]

Reverberating

Even from the first glance Yibo could guess the tiredness of the older. His heart wavered as his eyes watered yet again.

Zhan's eyes widened when he realised he wasn't alone. Both stared at each other in complete silence unable to bend their tongues to actually utter something.

"B-bo di.."It was Zhan's coarse voice that beat Yibo. Yibo wasn't sure what to utter so he stared completely still at his position but when Zhan tried to get to a sitting position but failed miserably, Yibo was quick to help him.

"Yibo I- how did you find me?" Because last time Zhan checked, he was freezing at the top of that mountain hating his present life situation. So waking up the next moment after his usual breakdowns to see Yibo, Zhan was in utter bewilderment.

"Ge why...why did you hide it from me." Yibo asked the question that he had been wanting to ask all this week. Zhan broke their eye contact and looked away as if in need to avoid the topic.

"Zhan Ge atleast tell me why did you agree to go to that damn mountain if you knew it was dangerous for you?" His voice wavered once again as he questioned the silenced older. Seconds passed as Yibo awaited for his reply.

"Because of you..'' Almost inaudible yet Yibo heard it loud and clear. Three words knocking the air out of his throat until he wanted so badly to scream. Yet another solid proof of his sole reason for Zhan's present situation.  He was speechless as he stood there staring at Zhan who was busy staring outside from the window. Both in profound pain in inside.

"Doesn't your legs hurt?'' Zhan said after almost an eternity of Yibo limply standing and letting thoughts swirl around in his head. Yibo gave him a small pained smile before disagreeing.

Zhan might be still in the hospital bed attached to various tubes he'd gotten accustomed in a long time ago, but he still didn't fail to notice the dark circles of the younger who looked way more thinner than he expected. Their love is wearing him out just like himself who knew it was the last few days he had left.
It was wearing them both out just like before.

He'd seen the younger die in front of his eyes two times, one time marrying another woman who was not him and seen that desperate: devastated look in his eyes he'd seen in him few minutes ago when he woke up before as well. All these things have happened before. and its happening again and again and again it made him feel sick in his stomach that he wanted to vomit. Now seeing Yibo made him only want to kill himself and Yibo and when they were forced to meet again in their next life, He'd kill himself again before Yibo gets a chance to know him.
'..I'm finally getting crazy'

"Oh the doctor said you can go home by two or three days.'' Yibo said breaking Zhan's chain of thoughts. He was not yet ready talk about this shitty situation of theirs and his freaking time is running out.

"Yibo..I think you should go home now. I'm fine now and-''

"Me? leaving you here? Are you crazy Ge?'' Yibo cut him off with a glare.

"No please Yibo you...you have to understand this I c-can't'' Zhan tried picking up words to make his persistent lover understand.

"I am not leaving you here! And understand what Ge? What's there to understand when you don't even say the reason why you hid this..this for so long. You wont tell me anything and yet you want me to understand. How am I supposed to do that?'' Yibo walked closer to Zhan now and thought to himself that he'll get his answers now or never.

"Oh I don't know maybe you can go back and actually think this through like a proper adult? And understand that this..this shit is never going to work between us and you are wasting your freaking time over a man who'd be dead even before you graduate.'' Zhan's raised voice uttered words that cut deep through Yibo until he felt it bleed. He even kept calling his full name as if he'd already given up on him...on them.

"Zhan ge please...don't d-don't say it like that.'' Yibo was trying his best to contain his tears inside that were stinging at the corners of his eyes, begging to be released.

"Then how am I supposed to say it Yibo? Sugarcoat it? Well let me get this straight You and I don't belong to each other because the damn universe says it. Because I've seen way too much and I remember way too much that I know it's actually true. We're damned to the end with this fucking curse that I have absolutely no idea of putting an end to.  And I would very much like to not have a pathetic end this time as well. So do me a favour..no do Us a favour and get over this. Find someone else and be happy so maybe it'll not be the same next time. '' Zhan was now shouting amidst his hysteria as his pent up frustration bursted out as knives that pierced Yibo.

"Who said you are going to die? Tell me ge who said I'll let you die in front of my eyes again? Also even if you so badly want to take all the problems to yourself and bury yourself in them I actually want to find solutions. You always hide away like a coward and maybe if you have said all these things to me before we might've already found a way to put an end.'' Yibo uttered before storming out leaving a frustrated Zhan inside.

His feet ran as fast as they could in the busy hallways of the hospital until he reached the rooftop. He didn't know why he went there but the tears that kept cascading down his face as if it felt like it got the freedom it received from being held hostage in his eyes forcefully.

Everything the other uttered kept reverberating in his head that he felt it might burst. He was already sitting on the floor hugging his knees. The freezing coldness brought by the night breeze didn't hurt as much as his head and heart did. Suddenly he started seeing an unclear figure amidst his chaotic mind.

Purple robes, lean muscular body. Power blazing out through the amethyst shaped ring in his forearm.
'Zidiyan' was what it was. Face unclear yet from a guess Yibo could say who it was.

He tried to gain his strength and pull his Wei Ying back upwards but his ears suddenly heard footsteps coming near him. He soon saw blade of a sword nearing them as he perceived who the person was from his purple prominent clothes.

"Jiang Cheng..." Wuxian said .

"Wei Wuxian..."

"Go.To.Hell." Jaing Cheng shouted while hitting his sword a bit far from their hands and landing it on the cliff, intentionally to break the cliff from above.

"WEI YING." He shouted. His throat burned as he kept shouting for the other to come back. To stop playing around.  His mind already feeling as if it had been blocked by some force, unable to comprehend anything. And suddenly in his hazy mind he had a grip on some thought. A thought so rageful he could already feel his jaw clenching hard, he feared his teeth would break.
Anger was all he felt when he turned towards his lover's brother.

Standing with a cynical grin he stared back at him. When he realised he was already aiming his sword at his heart.

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When he went back to Zhan's room, he was still wide awake even though Yibo was pretty sure it was past seven at night. He wasn't sure how Zhan would react but he desperately wanted to ask if he had known all this time. 'It's stupid question Yibo didn't he said that he remembers it all clearly unlike yourself. He probably knew it.'  So he decided to go along with that conclusion.

"Did you eat?'' Yibo nodded his head as he heard a snicker. "Stop lying. '' Zhan said as Yibo looked away in embarrassment.
"If you plan on dying with me I'm sure we can find some other less painful way for that than starving. ''Zhan said looking at Yibo dead in the eye before turning away from the younger one towards the wall.

Yibo stood there astonished for a few seconds before sighing and walking towards the couch.
'If only he was this optimistic about finding a solution as well.' Yibo mumbled with a pout before closing his eyes as an attempt to sleep which he hardly thought would come to him.

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Is anyone even still reading this? Anywy if there is anyone I'm so damn happy for ur existence.