Destiny has left its mark (Vampire Romance) +

19 ~ Dream it

I would have loved to go out and enjoy myself, but someone made the decision for me that I can't, so here I am, stuck in my room, staring out of the window and feeling an overwhelming sense of homesickness wash over me. 

The dim light of the setting sun casts long, elongated shadows on the walls, creating an atmosphere that only deepens my longing for the life I once had. I miss everything about it, even the parts I didn't particularly enjoy. Even if I didn't like working in the Library, at least Ellie was there to brighten my day. Ellie. Just thinking about her name makes it echo in my mind, and I can feel a lump forming in my throat as memories flood back. Ellie was a lie, a part of my past that I can never reclaim. And then there's Abraham. Is it wrong to feel a deep sense of resentment that I don't look like his friend anymore? This new face I have has turned my life upside down and made everything so much more difficult.

Outside, in the inner courtyard, I can hear the sounds of students laughing and playing together. Their laughter rings out in the air, creating a stark contrast to the heavy silence that fills my room. The courtyard lights flicker on, illuminating their faces, which are filled with carefree joy and happiness. I let out a deep sigh, feeling the weight of my own sadness. I can pretend to be okay for a while, but I know that's not the right way to go about living my life. How can I possibly vent out all this unhappiness if Ellie and Abraham aren't around for me to talk to?

Just then, I catch a glimpse of Elijah walking through the courtyard. One hand is holding a cell phone while the other is buried deep in his denim pocket. The confident way he strides across the courtyard makes my heart ache in ways I can't fully articulate. I quickly draw the curtains closed, trying to block out the sight of him, and slump down on the couch in defeat. Is this truly how my life is going to be from now on? Is this what my new normal looks like?

Suddenly, a knock on the bedroom door startles me out of my thoughts. It's Neo. "Can I come in?" he asks politely. I step aside to let him enter, feeling a mix of emotions.

"You like?" he asks, gesturing to the new things he bought, trying to lighten the mood.

"No, I don't like being here," I reply, my voice tinged with frustration and sadness.

"What's wrong?" he asks, concern etching itself into his features as he studies me closely.

I fold my arms tightly across my chest, feeling a surge of irritation welling up inside me. "I've got no friends. My life feels ruined. It's like I'm stuck in a jail cell, and I can't escape."

"Calm down," he says softly, trying to soothe me.

"Calm down? That's easy for you to say! You can come and go as you please, and you don't suddenly have someone else's face to deal with!" I shoot back, the frustration spilling over.

"I see," he mutters, his eyes dropping to the floor as if he's trying to process my words.

I let out a bitter laugh, unable to contain my feelings. "Of course you do. Do you have any idea what they're going to do to me? They put people on a machine that sends electricity through their brain and body just to test their powers!"

He looks shocked, his eyes widening in disbelief. "Where did you hear that?"

"Penelope," I answer, feeling a mix of anger and fear.

"Oh, the mermaid," he says, as if that explains everything and makes it all okay.

"That's what they're going to do to me," I say, my voice trembling as the reality of the situation sinks in.

"It's the first time I've heard about that," he says, trying to reassure me. "I'm sure Elijah won't let them do something like that to you. He cares."

"Please just leave," I say, feeling a tear slip down my cheek, betraying my inner turmoil.