TW
-METIONS OF SUICIDE
Two lips that have touched mine touch each other now.
Two lips that have met with mine already touch now
The first pair of lips belong to my dear ex best friend who I kissed as a joke
The second pair of lips belong to my ex boyfriend
I never thought they'd Touch each other's lips but now they do
And here we are
I'm betrayed by people I thought I could trust but they're happy with each other.
I hope it was worth hurting me to be without someone who shouldn't have had a chance with you
But hey
Doesn't matter right?
Cuz when two people love each other then the others shut up don't they?
I hope his brother treats you right and doesn't Bully you like he did with me but at the same I hope he hurts you so you leave
As rude as it may be I hope you Come back to me
Cuz your best friend misses you
The girl she could trust
The girl she had fun with
She misses you as a person
And it hurts seeing you Happy with a guy who has hurt her
But hey you got my back
Or so I thought at least but now it seems you'd rather hold onto his
I hope you're happy now and I hope it was all worth it.
Every time you lied and every time you hurt me
I hope it was worth it
But even if not don't expect me to be there when you need someone
I picked you up so many times I can't do it again
Cuz even tho I love you so
I will not let you step over me
That's how I viewed love for a long time
Letting people step over me and do what they want so I won't lose them
But I've found my worth and I will not get attached to you
Cuz I know you won't care
I know you will use it for your own good
I hope it was worth seeing me depressed
I hope it's worth now
I hope it's worth it when I'm dead
Cuz every night I lay in my bed
And think about how to get ride of the pain
I hope you're happy when I'm gone and can live your live on and on
I hope you can still smile and say "I made the right decision this time"
And I hope you will forget what we used to have
I hope you won't feel pain
But I hope your soul will ache as much es mine did after finding out how you betrayed me
I hope that when My suicidal thoughts won You can look back and say "I don't care"
Even if I hope you know you should
And I hope He knows it's his fault
I hope you both are sorrow for a while
But then I hope you let go
And maybe in a other universe we're Able to be friends again
Maybe
Just maybe
Maybe you even miss me the way I do miss you right now
Who knows
I just hope that you think of me once in a while
Cuz when I'm gone you're not gonna get the chance to hear my voice
Or to hug me
Neither will you ever see me again
I hope I'll be gone soon
But I don't want You to be alone
Even tho I said I won't care when you come back
I know exactly that I will
So that was a lie I guess
I like to act tough thats true
But the only thing I know You should be happy
And if that means For me to go and leave
I will
I hope though every leave you see reminds me of you
I hope every breath you take you will think why did I do this
But please Don't cry
Please don't think it's your fault
It's not
I just want you to realize what you did
I don't want you to be pained but at the same time I want you to feel the same pain as me
That doesn't make sense does it
No
Nothing makes sense about this
It's like a suicide letter but also not
I want you to know
I loved you
I did
But now all I feel is anger
Like a child who can't forgive their parent
And when I'm gone I hope you'll feel the same anger and pain.
But not for too long I can't stand you being in pain
