I low-key want to kms rn but it's suicide prevention month
Dunno
I'm still gonna do it.
I can't fucking live anymore. I hate being alive. I'm in so much pain, nothing helps and no one even cares. I hate how I'm told I'll grow out of it. I didn't grow out of it since I was 8.
I just don't want to live. I think it would be peaceful. I know there's a few people that might miss me but I just can't do this anymore. I don't know what to feel. I'm crying but I don't think I'm sad. I don't know what I'm feeling. I don't need help. I just want to die.
The pain is getting worse. I haven't told anyone except my mom and she doesn't believe me.
And to be honest with you. I started vaping. I know it's going to kill me one day. And I've been drinking more energy drinks. I think I'll try cigs soon.
I hope it kills me before I do it myself..
