Im not gay- I think (a mlm love story)

Chapter six

~*Evan's pov*~

I got dressed for work and left the house, getting into my car and driving off

During the drive I mulled over everything that had happened in the last week

Everything had gotten way more confusing and complicated and it was hurting my brain. I wanted Max to love me the way I loved him, I wanted Max to look at me the way I look at him, I...

But I know he never will...he's straight and we're married for tax purposes

That's all it'll ever be...

Right?

Oh jeez I hope not

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~*After Evan and Max got home from work*~

~*Evan's pov*~

"Hey Max" I said calmly as I sunk into the couch next to him, untying my shoes absentmindedly while I looked up at Max

"Hey Evan" he said blankly, he's been a lot more distant since the party, I wish I could figure out what's wrong but he shuts me out no matter what, it makes me wanna cry. Why can't he trust me?

Does he not like me anymore?

Did he ever?

Shit- I'm about to cry

I stood up suddenly and walked up to out shared room, I walked into the bathroom and locked the door, sinking to the floor as hot tears streamed down my face, why did I have to be like this? Why did I have to fall for the one man who would never love me back?

Why is Cupid so damn cruel?

I heard a soft knock on the other side of the door

"Evan...?"

"Y-yeah?"

"You ok?"

"Just fine"

"You're a bad liar Y'know?"

"...I know"

"Can I come in?"

"Please do"

Max opened the door softly and closed it as he sat down next to me, looking genuinely concerned for me, he took my hand in his and looked me in the eye

"Evan, dude, what's going on?" He asked with genuine concern, placing his hand on my cheek and pulling my head up when I didn't look at him

I didn't think and I leaned in, I felt my lips on his and it felt nice, to my surprise he didn't pull back, I melted into the kiss and moved my hand to the back of his neck, deepening the kiss, he placed his hands on my waist and stood us up. I pulled him closer so that our bodies were right up against each other, gods this felt nice

~*Max's pov*~

I pulled him closer, the feeling of his lips against mine was like heaven, I couldn't get enough of this moment

Wait hold up

What am I doing?!

This can't be...no...fuck...gods!!

I pulled away, looking scared, I mumbled a quick apology and ran out the door, shaking ever so slightly

I left Evan there, looking extremely upset

God I've ruined everything

Why am I like this??