Shooting For The Moon

Wanting you is like shooting for the moon

I'll never get there but that's what I see when I fall asleep

I am counting butterflies but never any sheep

I kept expired coffee even though I never drank any

I smiled for you all the time but I was never the one your heart could see

You needed to remind me that I am not worth your time

That my life is not interesting and my soul not worth a dime

You stopped time when you kissed me for literally hours

Present time was the only thing that was ever ours

You let me down so easily when you found something you thought better

You said you hated yourself but you still think you're so much better

I was there all along when you met new people

Always answered when you tried to call

When you lost friends and hope

I gave you all of my love hoping it would help you cope

We accept the love we think we deserve

You made me believe I didn't deserve any

I don't know why but you were my priority

You only talked to me when you had extra time but I made time for you always

That's why you think I am too much, not busy enough

That's why you tortured me for days and years

Of course, you were gonna take me for granted

I would have given you all of my time till the end

But I never had your love to defend

You were always ashamed of me

You think you're so much cooler than me

You never cared about me

You only saw what I was willing to give for you to be happy

You were the only one I could stand everyday

You're millions of miles away

But I see you everywhere

When I am happy and when I gasp for air

When a joke is funny and when someone says something that would have made you frown

When someone talks about you, it makes me drown

You're every shade of color except gray

You're every word except those I would say

I hear you in the best of music

I think of you when I see some childish toys made of plastic

When somewhere feels like home

And when I feel all alone

I think about you when I see no message received on my phone

When I listen to your songs on repeat

And when I look at all the photos I am still trying to delete

Even if you can't realize it, it doesn't change the fact that I was just a pawn

So I'll be of no use when you'll find someone

I was never meant to be your future

Us separated still feels like torture