Peace of mind. || Tom Kaulitz

39. | Forgiveness. |

As Tom entered the room, I couldn't help, but feel mixed emotions - anger, sadness, disappointment, love, happiness and joy. It made my head feel dizzy.

-Hi.

-Hi.-I let out a shaky breath.

-Can we drive somewhere and talk?-He asks and i immediately nod.

-Just let me dress warmer.

I grab some warm sweatpants, a big black hoodie and walk to the bathroom to get dressed. As i put on the clothes, i try to move carefully, reminding myself that my side still hurts like a bitch.

Like doctor Jenna said, the wound itself was pretty nasty, for some reason i was lucky and no organs were harmed. The bullet had just missed them, still leaving a deep, painful, slowly healing wound. That was the most annoying part - it healing so slowly. Two weeks and it had made small progress in healing, since it got infected for some reason when i was in the hospital.

I sighed, when i put everything on with minimal pain. I realized i was wearing one of Toms hoodies and smiled to myself. I left the bathroom and Tom was leaning on the wall, thinking about something.

-Is Bill coming with us?-i ask, nodding towards the balcony, where he was smoking.

-We'll drop him off at our apartment.-Tom replies.

When we finally drop Bill off, Tom immediately drives out of the parking lot. He makes a few turns and i already know where we're going.

I got comfortable in the seat and enjoyed the beautiful views. Christmas was around the corner and everything was decorated - houses, streets, stores, even some cars had accessories resembling Christmas.

When we reach the parking lot, Tom quickly jumps out and runs to my door, opening it and placing his hand in front of me. I grab it and carefully stand up, smiling a bit to myself as i did that without any pain.

We walked through the snowy sand, some footsteps could be seen in it. I sighed at the beautiful view. The ocean waves were strong, crashing against the ice it made on the shore. The wind was strong, at some point violent, yet felt calming. And the beautiful night sky.

I turn to Tom as he clears his throat and smile a bit st him.

-The view is beautiful.-I say, turning back to the ocean and inhaling the fresh air.

-It is.

I turn to him and he keeps looking at me, a smirk plastered on his face. I look at him confused, because of the smirk, but sudden realization hit me and i feel myself blush.

Tom walks up to me and carefully hugs me, looking me in the eyes. I guess he was looking for a negative reaction from me. But what he got was me hugging him tightly and hiding my face in his chest. He hugged me tighter around my shoulders.

-I'm so sorry, Sunshine.-He sighs.-I didn't mean for any of that to happen. I was stupid, I didn't think about the danger.

I shut my eyes tightly, feeling them get wetter from tears coming in.

-I love you so much and I'm willing to do anything for you to come back to me.

Tom.

I meant those words. I would do anything for this girl. She has my heart, will have it forever. She is what keeps me sane, pushes me towards the right direction.

When i was without her, I couldn't eat or sleep, I felt like i was going crazy. Bill was worried for me, trying to make me eat. But with his cooking skills...

When i finally heard her voice it felt like an angel was talking to me. She's my angel.

-Please, Dakota.-I carefully place my fingers on her chin and lift her head up.-Say something.