In This Game Of Love (lucathy Fanfiction)

Chapter 11

I woke up and it's two o' clock . lily was  ready with medicines.. I smiled as I sat up and gulped down the tablets.. She gave me a candy as it's damn bitter..

"hmm..strawberry flavour..I like it..!! "

I said and she smiled.. I have a feeling lily really thinks of me  as a child ..then I chatted with lily for so long that it already become evening .. I brewed coffee for lily and she liked it.. As we are chatting... Dad  come back home..he is early today

"  are you OK now.? "he asked as soon as he entered.. His eyes looked relieved that I finally came out of my cacoon.. I smiled nodding a yes. He looked tired and had dark circles .. I feel guilty.. He had to put up with my tantrums for over a month.. so he mustn't have gotten good  sleep..

" athy.. Make coffee for your dad.. He will like it.. "lily said smiling..

Should I..? I never made anything for him.. We aren't that close before..

" dad.. "I called and he looked up staring at me amused.. What the.. Why is his reaction like this..?!!!

" here.. Have some coffee.. "I said placing the cup and saucer down.. He took a sip and give a slight nod..

"  it's good.. Thanks.. "he said.. I felt like time stopped.. Did he really hit his head somewhere..?!!!

" is your fever OK..? Lilian  said you don't want to see doctor.. "he said in low voice..

" hmm.. I am all better.. Lily takes such a good care of me.. I slept like a baby..!!"i said and he smiled a little..

" that's good.. " he mumbled..

" since I am good now.. I am gonna hang out with helly tonight.. "I mumbled

" are you planning on drinking..?! " he asked

" yeah.. I badly want to drink.. " I said.. And he glared at me

" don't do that athanasia.. If you started drinking whenever you feel stressed.. It will become a habit.. Then it will be hard to  give up.. Missing someone is so cruel.. Drinking only escalates the pain.. I wish you don't  choose that way.."

he said.. Even though his tone is blank.. His eyes hold emotions..!! It's my first time seeing him talking like this . Drinking will become a habit.. Missing someone is cruel... All those words..i can feel the pain in them.. Is he talking from experience..?!! Does he missed mom that much..?!! Is that why he always hated me.. The reason for  her demise..?!!

He flinched as his hands reached my face.. He wiped something wet.. Tears..?!! Am I crying..?!!

"why are you crying again..?" he asked in a concerned tone..

"Dad .. I am sorry.." I said crying and he Gently patted my head

"why are you sorry..? I am the one who should apologise. I am sorry... You are suffering like this because of me.." he said.. I hugged him tight and buried my face on his shoulder.

It's warm..He hugged me back, gently caressing my back..

" I am sorry dad.. Hic..i am really sorry.. "  I said and he patted my head..  I parted from the hug and he turned towards me.. Staring straight in my eyes..

" you did nothing wrong.. Don't apologise.. I decided not to stay away from you anymore..something I always wanted to but never dared to do..

It's all my fault.. I carelessly give you  away to another house when you are only twenty.. I thought you will be happy if you had a good family... But I regretted it When I saw you being happy roaming around with Michael.. I felt jealous of him..